Body dysmorphia is so weird??? I am so anxious right now. I lost 4 pounds in 4 days from a terrible stomach flu, and now I am back at my smallest weight, 100 lbs. I went to go take a shower and when I looked at my body in the mirror, I was horrified by what I saw. I saw a disgusting skeleton. I could see my ribs from front to back. Since when had my ribs been that visible? My stomach was almost flat, but then my perception shifted and suddenly my stomach looked like it had a bit more chub to it. And I was astounded, aghast, as I watched my body alternate between "grotesque skeleton" to "could lose a few more pounds" and I am so sad because either way I am not happy with my body. I don't want to lose any more weight, but if I gain back those 4 pounds I lost then I will probably want to lose them again. Not to make a joke about this, but it was just like The Dress. If I chose to see golf and white, gold and white would appear. If I chose to see black and blue, black and blue would appear. I ended up obsessing about it the whole shower because I am so sad that I became this thin and I don't even know how it happened. It doesn't make any sense and my mind is racing trying to find answers. Do any of you suffer from BDD and can relate? I'm going to go eat a delicious bowl of muddy buddies to try to get myself to forget what I just saw in the mirror.

I can relate to you just from the first few lines I have body dismorphia too and I hate my body. Sometimes I look too chub sometimes extremely skinny. I lose weight pretty quickly because I have eating disorders

I’m not sure where I’m at on the severe body dismorphia side, but I’m always here to talk if you need to vent or maybe need advice

I can related. I hated my perceived under eye hollows, so I got derma fillers. They went as excepted, no issues according to the derm. But, now I look in the mirror and can’t shake the regret I feel. All the sudden I want my hollow eyes back. Thankfully the filler is temporary and will dissolve on its own in time. But, my instrusive thoughts have been flooding me: what if I look crazy? People will notice. I regret this. Why am I so insecure that I mutilated my body? Etc. I’ve gotten blood word, a follow up with the doctor who injected me, and reassurance from my family and friends that it looks good and is fine, and that I’ll go away and be done with eventually. But, I can’t help that it’s all I can focus on. I’ve been working very hard with CBT guidebooks & have a therapy appointment tomorrow which is definitely helping. Everyday, using the techniques I’ve learned, it’s getting better for me to cope with my decision, the uncertainty of the future, and all that. I write this cuz I can relate to what you said so much. I was unhappy before, unhappy after, and even knowing that I, thank god, had a good outcome and it’s temporary, I still get sucked into memory checking, mirror checking, poking at my face, comparing old pics to now, googling which leads me to perceive potential complications that I’ve been told are not there! I have the insight to understand what’s happening to me, but it is still a challenge to not become entangled in these thoughts. It’s been about 4 weeks. The first 2, I didn’t think would survive. These past 2, I know and feel myself coping better and have hope that I can sit with these thoughts, knowing they’re just that. Thanks for listening!