Guys.....idk how and why?? I came home today to take a nap and ever since I woke up my mind has convinced me that I'm gay/bi!!idk what to do...!! My heart wants to be heterosexual/heteroflexible so badly!! I was looking at my insta today and all I see are pretty girls and I keep getting falsely attracted to them!!! I can't look at videos without checking myself...:( Can somebody provide a bit of advice or assurance? Ik I shouldn't be asking but I'm so distressed...:(

Yeah I will, thanks :)

Are you also numb to the thoughts of a boy? I want it but my heart doesn't get warm or fluttery like it used to. My heart now gets fluttery when I think of girls and I'm distressed :(

@chamomile Constantly and I struggle with that! Imagine being sure of your sexuality, having already passed puberty, teenage years and than all of the sudden this happened to me! I had already my sexuality defined and was sure of what I liked or not and all of a sudden this happened! It's OCD and it will always be OCD!

Like I feel like throwing up whenever I think of actually being gay/bi. My brain tells me "it isn't too bad to date a female" while I try resisting it like "fuck no" I honestly don't know what to do. I've done ERP and meditation but my brains goes "yeah that's a big waste of time, you're gay!!" :(

I see...so unknowingly I had pure-O too. Kind of explains my weird obsessions with hygiene and sexuality :(

@chamomile ? See relax!!

@Mimi123 I feel I'm gonna throw up because if my intrusive thoughts. Because of this I haven't eaten for about 6 hours now :(. I'm trying my best to relax but I just can't

@chamomile ? Don't you have any relaxation tea? Go for a walk outside!!

@Mimi123 It's 1 am where I live right now, I'm not going outside. Im just drinking water to cope with everything :(. Can I ask you something?

@chamomile Of course!

@Mimi123 Before HOCD I had bi tendencies since I had a crush on a fictional female, would that be considered gay?

@chamomile Has you said bi! Let me tell you something! Gay or bisexual people just know they are! They don't go through this mind game, thinking that every little reason makes them gay! This is like when you felt straight, you just were! So if it makes you bi it's only something you can say! I wish I could help you! But I'm 20 and I'm going through the same problems! So yeah it's hard to tell you!

@Mimi123 Also ever since I woke up my brains telling me I should be guilty of not being a lesbian and I actually feel guilty? Idk wtf is going on

@Mimi123 And from your words now I realize that only I can say who I am and it's for me to decide. Also thank for your good words and advice. I really needed that :)

@chamomile That happens to me!! If your brain says that just say ok! I'm telling you that it will stop bothering you! Not automatically but the symptoms do decrease!

@Mimi123 Oh ok then I guess. Ive been doing that and now my brains like "so you're accepting you're gay?". I feel bad but I'm dealing with it ?

@chamomile I also feel super bad! But your brain wants you to say yes! So say! And I promise you it will stop! Otherwise your just giving your brain more and more reassurance and he feeds out of it

@Mimi123 I guess I'll try. Man this shit is hard to deal with honestly :(. Thanks again

@chamomile I know! Maybe your going through some big pressure in your life try get rid of it! By chilling a little!

@Mimi123 I guess Im going through some shit. I mean my body ain't right cause I can't eat much and my final exams are coming. Gosh...please pray for me ?

@chamomile That's it see! Relax! Failing finals is not the end of the world! Don't put too much pressure on you! Otherwise OCD will appear! He appears everytime we are stressed out with something! So you don't need to find the answer of your sexuality! But you do need to find what is really making you anxious

@Mimi123 I see... Well I'll try my best. I'm suddenly having intrusive thoughts again and I feel bad :( but I'll try