ruminating_redhead
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MarsMars
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I have BPD along with OCD, and depression/possibleptsd/possibleautismfuncomboiknow so derealization is a common occurrence for me. Sometimes my brain makes me regress from it. Sometimes I just sit through it. Sometimes I have meltdowns. I wish I knew how to cope with it more, but most I can do myself and what I tell people is sometimes you have to just sit through it and ride it till it’s over.
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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What are the feelings you get? My vision is affected almost. And it’s kind of like I’m trying to force myself to see my surroundings better and I can’t
MarsMars
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@ruminating_redhead It’s kind of like your brain does make you feel foggy yeah. Depending on what kind of derealization I get can be good or bad. If it’s bad I tend to forget what happens after I have a meltdown. I tend to not realize what I say during my derealization either. It’s almost like you’re stuck inside the back of your head.
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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@Mars I’m sure it’s probably different for everyone too. I think I want “normal” and “perfect” so bad I stare at my house and other surroundings trying to feel those normal comfortable feelings and it just makes me feel more out of place. I look at other people’s homes (people who are happy) and try to compare them to mine. I must sound insane. Lol. My worst episode I was wedding dress shopping. I hardly remember picking out my own damn wedding dress ?
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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@ruminating_redhead I just want to break through thay fog and live and feel and see.
MarsMars
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@ruminating_redhead I live through others constantly dreaming of a different life so I undersfand. My house is a complete mess both clutter and like... other things. And I always watch videos of like room tours just wishing and dreaming I’m living this perfect life or I can.
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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@Mars I’m glad you understand. Does your surroundings ever feel fake and flat?
MarsMars
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@ruminating_redhead It can yeah. For me it feels foggy and or nonexistent. I’ll forget my surroundings even exist or they don’t feel real.
Russ1989Russ1989
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I suffer from harm ocd , i have poor memory from smoking daily chronic aggressive medical marijuana use/abuse and i digest cbd oil daily to cope with pain and misery from life and depression, i also have false memory ocd. I struggle with immediate fears that attack my thoughts and mind , what occurs with me is immediately after using the internet on my smart cell phone i get attacked with intrussive images intrussive thoughts and magical thinking and feelings that i might have posted a violent harmful internet comment and that i will be sent to prison for postint violent harmful dangerous internet threats ... i use the stop sign technique and mindfulness to cope with my false memories ocd with harm themes,, it gets better after you refuse to check your internet history to make sure you didnt post any violent threatening comments ,, i use the stop sign technique and ali greymonds you have ocd youtube videos can help sometimes.. life with ocd thought disorder is very disabaling
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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I think the part that hurts the most is you feel Ike you’ll never feel better, I personally feel like I will never fully be happy. I’m sorry that you’re going through what you are, ocd comes in all forms as it seems. I will look into Ali greymond. Thank you
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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Almost like I’m trying to force comfort and perfection and it just puts me in a weird state. Erg!!! I want to be able to explain this lol
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