Don’t usually have bad dreams about my intrusive thoughts but I just did. And during a daytime nap, too! That never happens. Can I tell somebody about them?

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

Sure. Just be careful that you're not looking for reassurance. Sharing your experience is positive.

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

this morning i woke up and i didnt remember turning off my youtube tv app on my playstation4 last night , and i have immediate fears that i left a violent harmful threatening youtube internet comment and that it will be only a matter of time till i get sent to prison for leaving violent harmful internet comments. This is what i struggle with often as well. I smoke alot of Legal medical marijuana daily to try to relax my mind from life and ocd misery ,, since medical marijuana causes a bad memory my ocd tries to fill in those nights where i dont remember turning off my youtube tv app and tries to say that i left a harmful dangerous threatening threatening youtube comment and i keep on refusing to check my youtube history to see if a bad harmful internet comment was posted because i feel like that would be making the ocd worse by feeding into it

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

It's kinda strange that you keep copying and pasting repeated paragraphs onto other people's posts when they don't make any sense as a response.... Are you ok?

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

@ocdillustrated Yeah im okay i promise i am not seeking reassurance. I feel like my intrussive thoughts can become like bad dreams ,, its painful waking up to fears that you posted violent harmful threatening internet comments. I am lucky i found this NOCD community without you and this community i would feel more lost. I apologize i wont post similar comments. I just want people to know the ocd theme i am suffering with

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

@ocdillustrated Please do you have any advice for me on how to cope with these terrible thoughts that i am plaqued with

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Russ1989 You absolutely deserve to be heard and validated. I was just concerned that maybe something had changed for you. What advice have you heard before? I don't want to repeat what you already know

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

@ocdillustrated A few said to not check to see if i wrote threatening notes or internet comments , meaning dont go back and check internet history. Dont look in drawers to see if you left threatening notes/letters at friends family or work places

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Russ1989 Those are both good ritual prevention. Have you tried them out?

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

@ocdillustrated Yes i have but i am still haunted daily by different harm ocd themes

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

@ocdillustrated I just want to feel normal again and not have these intrussive thoughts ,, is the only way to recover from intrussive thoughts that i caused harm and fear that i will be sent to prison is to not let the thoughts bother me mentally and over time they will float away?

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Russ1989 Yes. We can't eliminate thoughts. In fact, the more we try to eliminate them, the more frequently and intensely they will happen. The goal of treatment is to take the emotional wind out of their sails. We can't be bored and scared at the same time

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

@ocdillustrated @ocdillustrated What do you mean take emotional wind out of their sails? I gotta continue to use the stop sign technique

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Russ1989 It's an idiom that means to take the power away.

Russ1989

Date posted: 5y

@ocdillustrated Okay yeah i gotta make sure i dont give into the ocd intrussive thoughts and not check my internet history to try to get relief that i didnt post a violent threat internet comment

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