TL;DR I am potentially going to be employed again after many paralyzing yes I have good news for once! It feels like it’s been forever since I had any hope, but I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was first diagnosed almost 5 years ago. Just before that, I was summarily fired from my job for having pedophilic thoughts (POCD). I work with kids a lot. I can see why I was fired, but it was handled the wrong way. That’s a story for later, I think. Relatively recently I got back into contact with my old boss (whom I love). I posted on Facebook that I was thinking about going back to school to get a degree in Early Childhood Development. Well ex-boss lady got into contact with me earlier today when I posted about getting my degree. For work she goes into homes in order to help children with behavioral problems. Her agency takes a different kind of approach towards mental well-being. We talked for a bit, caught up a little, and then she kinda pitched an idea to me. She thinks I would be perfect for the job. That’s enough motivation to face my fear of leaving the home. I am definitely interested since it gets me working with kids again. She’s gonna talk to her supervisor about it and see if there are any openings for me. Sorry for the novel I’m just really excited which is an unusual feeling for me.

Thank you! I hope this step isn’t too overwhelming.

What do you mean by accepting my thoughts?

@twicedouble Accepting thoughts means to sit with them and not let them affect you instead of fighting the thoughts. For example I’ll have an intrusive thoughts about harming my family but I won’t let it affect me. I’ll just say, so what if I do and go about my day. My thoughts don’t ultimately mean I’ll do the action is what I realized

@ocdmaybe Oh okay. I understand. Yeah, I’ve never done anything like that. My therapist didn’t even know I had OCD until a few weeks ago. There was some kind of mistake during my initial intake.

@twicedouble If you get the job please let me know. I’d love for NOCD to help get you effective therapy. We have therapists and can help ensure you only pay what’s financially affordable to you. I’d hate for your ocd to hold you back from succeeding in your job.

@ocdmaybe Can I ask why you didn’t see an ocd therapist instead? It doesn’t seem professional that your current therapsit didn’t diagnose you properly. A lot of therapists don’t recognize ocd and it makes it so hard for us to get help!

@ocdmaybe Well I’m on Medicare currently. And it’s not that she didn’t diagnose me. She didn’t know that I had already been diagnosed because it was ommited from my initial interview. It wasn’t her fault. I didn’t go to an OCD specialist because I’d have to travel quite a bit to get to one. I have no way to drive myself, my car is broken and I need to get money to fix it. Currently my mom is driving me everywhere.