Dre249
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AnonymousAnonymous
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HOCD can get really real. So real to the point that some people actually start believing they're gay and start dating the same sex and living lifestyles they aren't comfortable with.
Dre249Dre249
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Wtf how do i make that not at all able to happen??
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Dre249 There isn't much written about it but I would personally guess it depends on you and how you feel.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Dre249 Sorry it wasn't the answer you were looking for :(
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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Thoughts are only as "real" as you believe them to be. If you respond to a thought as though it is truthful, your brain will learn to believe it more. If you respond to the same thought like it's a meaningless brain hiccup, you will gradually believe it less
Dre249Dre249
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How can I respond to it without giving a f
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 By going "ok, whatever. Back to..." And return to whatever you were doing without trying to figure out the thought
Dre249Dre249
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@ocdillustrated I always flex my whole body mostly like stretch my neck is this considered a compulsion
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 Try not doing it and see how you feel
Dre249Dre249
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@NOCD Advocate - ocdillustrated I feel anixous n distressed like it’s becoming real
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 Then it's probably a compulsion. How long do you think you can delay?
Dre249Dre249
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@NOCD Advocate - ocdillustrated Like 20 seconds if I think about it
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 What precedes the stretch? I'm wondering whether this might be more of a tic than a compulsion. The boundary is blurry
Dre249Dre249
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@NOCD Advocate - ocdillustrated No it isn’t a tic at all, I don’t mean when I think about the image I get distressed so I try to not think of it by doing that and I try not to do the compulsion but then it’s like “haha you are gay cause your not doing it”
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 Gotcha. Thanks for explaining more. In that case, I'd try saying "yep, maybe, so what" and delaying the movement
Dre249Dre249
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@NOCD Advocate - ocdillustrated What do I sound like to you
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 You sound like a person struggling with unwanted thoughts and actions
Dre249Dre249
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It must be true that there are people using HOCD as denial. There’s no way everyone who thinks they have HOCD actually has it. This is what my mind tells me when I think of HOCD, which reinforces my loop. I try to just put all the HOCD shit to the side and just confront it head on without leaning too far to either side (denial or HOCD). The problem is when I do this, if I come to the conclusion that I’m straight I don’t feel satisfied with it. It feels like I’m just saying that because that’s what I want to be, but if I come to the conclusion that I’m Bi or Gay, it feels like I’m saying it but not really accepting it within, which convinces me that I’m in denial. I’m just so angry because this all became so trivialized. I’ve brought myself to the point of telling myself that I’m gay or bi so I can move forward and not be stuck like this. Also, looking into my past sucks now because I can’t tell if I’m remembering my memories correctly or through a “your gay” lens on. I question things, I never used to give a second thought. Whatever I’m going through has brought me too my knees and has torn my self esteem and life apart. my life is now consumed with these thoughts. I feel like I’m being stripped of who I am and being replaced with a scared pussy. I feel like a scared pussy because I’m scared of myself, all this fear of what I could be has stopped me from just being and not giving a fuck. I know you’ve heard it all but I’m trying to see what you think again
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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I hear your distress. It's clear how fast the gears in your head are spinning. But are you getting any closer to your goals by continuing to perseverate on this? How else could you have spent the time it took to type it all out?
Dre249Dre249
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True true and no
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 What would you have rather spent your time on?
Dre249Dre249
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@NOCD Advocate - ocdillustrated Let me ask you something, is a big reason this stuff is constant, cause I’ve just been at home, cause 4 years ago I moved to a different country I have like no nice friends and I just mostly sit at home
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Dre249 Possibly. You could test out the theory by engaging in more social activities
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Anonymous123
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- 24w
Can anyone tell me if this is normwl
Hi so I've been having a recent theme of soocd hocd. At the start I was all panicked and couldn't leave my house. Now all my emotions feel like they have turned off. It feels real now like I'm just in denial. It's bringing up memories from the past of shows I've watched or people I was friends with to try and prove the point or people I thought were pretty. It's saying you've only realised now cause you are comfortable as I had a difficult childhood. I feel no attraction towards men and can't remember if I ever have now even though I know I did. It's saying its all fake. I really am. Starting to believe it's real and I just feel depressed now. Am I going to have to leave my boyfriend who I planned my life with. It feels like life is going by and I'm stuck. I have no energy at all.
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anonymous1348
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- 15w
hocd
I don’t know what to do anymore, this started nearly a year ago and caused so much stress and panic attacks over the thought of loosing my boyfriend. Now it just feels real and that he always liked girls and suppressed it (but like the boys i always liked in the past were real feelings they had to be and with my boyfriend i love him) but i haven’t got much anxiety now feels like i want the thoughts and that they don’t bother me even tho they used to, this seems to happen every time i get a lil better, idk just feels so true and that’s what i acc want with no stress, just a lil scared.
ocdsurviver
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- 12w
I’m so tired. HOCD is the worst.
I don’t know what to do with this bs anymore. I’m crying again and again and again and again. I cannot describe how painful this is. I’ve recovered from every single OCD subtype expect this one. HOCD is so scary and it’s so incredibly scary how it feels so real. The issue with this subtype is how intertwined it is with feelings and sensations. I hate how it keeps latching onto the past and uses the past as proof. I don’t want it to be the truth. I don’t want to accept any possibility.
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