Kaycee86
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ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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Did you know that when experimenters forced people without OCD to rmchexj and recheck a door lock, they became less and less certain it was locked? Food for thought
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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Hmm very interesting I like this thank you for sharing!!
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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I feel like that with my Instagram stories like for example the more and more I check them I convince myself I’m missing out and my life is worse than theirs but it reality I don’t think it is bc they are only showing the good things on Social media. It has just become a compulsion and ritual for me to make sure I watch them all - which is very exhausting and is bad for my mental health bc i compare myself to everyone all the time now but don’t know how to stop the compulsion of watching them ?
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@Toledo2017 I just got an app to help limit my continuous checking. It's called app detox I think. It's pretty useful
ilovemylifeilovemylife
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I have checking OCD and I tell myself everything I will become stronger but I fail. Some days I can do it, some days i have a mental breakdown. It is really hard but have you thought about an anxiety hierarchy where you start resisting compulsions at the bottom of the hierarchy first before you make your way up? I started this by myself and there are so many things I don't check now that I used to before. And I just laugh at it. I may be still extreme because I have not gotten rid of thing on the top of my hierarchy which affects my daily life but I will work towards it. Recently I've been depressed and giving up on life but just writing this has made me realise I can do it. It will take time. Failing one day doesn't mean failure in general. As the saying goes you got to fail before you succeed.
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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Yes omg love this so much thank you for sharing. What are some things you check ?
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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Also are you currently on meds for OCD ?
ilovemylifeilovemylife
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@Toledo2017 I check Ofcourse my doors, windows, switches but ive reduced that because I'm not the last to go to bed. I check my bag and make sure that I've got my glasses in there and I must make sure everytime I close the case, my glasses aren't broken. I have a lot of booklets for school so I have to count every page to make sure that nothing is ripped out although I've reduced that to just checking the front and back page of that booklet. I have to make sure I check my social media's to make sure I didn't post anything (that is my high anxiety). I've deleted my social media but it still haunts me to think I still exist on the platform. I check what I've written on my essays and homework multiple times incase I wrote something harmful. Probably would read this message after I've sent this. Every single time I go to the bathroom I have to make sure the taps are off before I leave. I have to do a mental ritual to remind myself i didnt bring my phone with me to the toilet because that triggers me a lot. There's more but that's all in my head.
ilovemylifeilovemylife
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@Toledo2017 I'm not on meds yet as I'm not 18 yet. I'm 17 right now and my doctor has told am I have to go under an assessment to see if I can be an exception for antidepressants but I'm on the waiting list so that's going to take a long time. But I desperately need it now as I've got my final exams coming up. Don't wait to fail them and not get into university.
Kaycee86Kaycee86
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@ilovemylife I do the same thing. I know exactly how you feel. It's so exhausting. Thank you for sharing.
ilovemylifeilovemylife
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@Kaycee86 Which one do you do? I know it's exhausting, it really makes me question my purpose in life
Kaycee86Kaycee86
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@ilovemylife I check the sink when I go into the restroom. I also check my purse like 8 times before I go to bed. I feel like I need to make sure that my credit cards are in my wallet and constantly checking to see if my keys are there. I also check lights, stoves, refrigerator, and I cant go to bed if I dont laydown right.
ilovemylifeilovemylife
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@Kaycee86 I do all of that! What has made it easier for me though is if i say a random word each time i check something and that way when I recall it I remember I said that random word. It's quite a good method you should try it
Kaycee86Kaycee86
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@ilovemylife Thank you I will!
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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@ilovemylife I definitely do some of that you’re not alone it is just so exhausting ???
ilovemylifeilovemylife
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@Toledo2017 It's comforting to know there's other people out there❤
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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@ilovemylife Yes same exactly ✨?
XTrinstaXXTrinstaX
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I recheck thoughts to see if they till trigger me. I’m stupid because they still trigger me
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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Yes omg me too
Toledo2017Toledo2017
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Same ??
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