TwylerGuy12
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UnEnlightenedUnEnlightened
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Your guilt over the thoughts is a pretty good indicator that you don’t really want to harm them. Your fear of harming them because of how important they are to you is what is driving the OCD. Everyone has violent and disturbing thoughts, it’s just that people like don’t have an easy time ignoring them.
UnEnlightenedUnEnlightened
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* people like us
UnEnlightenedUnEnlightened
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Everyone has disturbing thoughts. You’re just being too hard on yourself.
TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
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@TheMusicalCow I know but I'm just so tired of living in fear. Like rn my face and chest feel so hot. Is that normal?
MarsMars
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I don’t have a good relationship with my parents much but I still love them and my harm ocd is surrounded by them specifically and it always scares me esp with the urges it feels physically and I always freak out and compulsions including blinking, saying love and happiness over and over again, even hitting myself.. so I totally understand. It’s hard to get through those thoughts but once someone told me to picture the thoughts like balloons and watch them float away.
TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
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I have most of your compulsions too, including hitting myself. and I get the urges too but I know they're not real but they can feel that way. love my parents so much and have always had a good relationship with them. I've heard that and that they're like clouds and to watch them float by but I always get sucked back into the ruminating cycle even after I feel I've made progress.
UnEnlightenedUnEnlightened
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That’s a good way of thinking about it.
MarsMars
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@TwylerGuy12 Yeah I feel that, it’s so much easier said than done. And the urges feel so real (for me it’s like I get scared of actually wanting to do it bc I get mad/don’t have that good relationship which makes me even more terrified it’s me and not OCD) best way to go at it is keep trying to push for those floating away thoughts, accept that they’re there... maybe do something with your hands (idk if it’s the same for you, my physical urges go to my hands) but as long as it isn’t in a compulsive way but a way to keep your brain busy! I’m sorry you’re going through this.. harm ocd sucks big time :(
TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
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@Mars I know it does! It makes me so easily agitated which makes me even more terrified. I'm scary to death of anything happening to them and I'd hurt myself before anyone else.
MarsMars
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@TwylerGuy12 I feel the same way... it’d be me before anyone else. I’d never wanna hurt anyone else and the thoughts are terrifying.
TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
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@Mars Same both thoughts are terrifying and I just want to be rid of this shitty low in my life.
MarsMars
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@TwylerGuy12 All I can say is I hope they ease up for you soon... I’ve been battling them since I was about 10, and while they don’t go away they can ease up with time and care. I hope you can get to that point soon too.
UnEnlightenedUnEnlightened
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It’s the anxiety. I used to/still have disturbing thoughts but I learned to accept them because I realized that’s not who i am or want to be and that everyone has them. It helps me get over the anxiety. Part of the problem is disturbing thoughts like that make you think you want to do them, but I realized that strong reaction to them meant I didnt, and learning that everyone thinks like that at times helped me to not freak out over them as much anymore.
UnEnlightenedUnEnlightened
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Let the thoughts come but realize that’s not you and try and resist the urge to over-analyze it. The thing is you’re feeling guilty for having them, when deep down you know you don’t really want to do those things. You just need to try your best to brush them off and fight through the anxiety. You eventually build up a habit of just disregarding it and it becomes easier.
TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
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Thank you both for your advice. Today has been a great day up u til now.
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- 16w
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About 2 months ago, I sliced my arm so deep in an attempt to make this all go away.. as there was blood spurting like everywhere my life flashed before my eyes and I could hear my parents laughing in the room beside me. I started screaming for help as my eyes flooded with tears. How could their little girl do that to herself?? I was able to get to the ER and have my arm stitched up.. making my attempt a fail. But I’m so scared. I don’t want to do something like that again. I’ve never seen my parents cry except for then. The fear in their eyes haunts me up to this day. But that’s the only thing that relieves my pain. Can someone help or relate to this ???
Anonymous
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- 16w
I feel like it was never OCD, or it was but now it feels different.
There are moments when something takes over me, like I have to fight myself (literally restrain myself) from acting on my thoughts, like causing harm to my parents or brother. I get these feelings that feel so real, like they are genuinely my own. There are moments when I feel like I like them, and it makes me question whether this is truly OCD or if it's me. Then I wonder whether this is me lying to myself, because I feel the urge to smile at the thought, or feel like I have some pleasure. I check whether I like them, and then I feel like I do, so I stop immediately. I feel like my old self is gone, and I've become this person, and that it was never OCD. Right now, as I type this, I feel like I'm lying to myself. There are moments when I feel like my brain splits, as if this is my new personality. Or there are moments when I feel like it might feel liberating or freeing if I do it. I genuinely feel like this is not OCD. There are moments when I stop the thought, and I feel like it's out of principle, as if I don't truly want to stop at that thought. I truly can't picture this to be my life now. I never had these thoughts in my life until two and a half months ago. It truly makes me question whether it was OCD. I don't get why. I used to view my family as my world, and now my mind is making me scared and feel like my room is my only safe place from them, from me.
Anonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 14w
Harm ocd
Anybody else struggling with harm OCD?? Father here, mainly goes for my wife and son. It’s been very debilitating. Just started with nocd, anybody going through the same thing or has gotten better??
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