My worst OCD fear this far has been fear of having schizophrenia. It makes me feel absolutely miserable and just unwell. I know it’s a common theme. So I’m wondering, to the people who have this fear, do you ever get random paranoid thoughts or delusions that pop into your head but you know isn’t true? Like you’re just creating them to try to feed the ocd monster? Also, has anyone with this fear not tried taking medication for OCD in fear that will induce psychosis that you will never be able to come back from?

I’ve had that too where I thought I was hearing things. It’s so hard that when my anxiety is bad it feels like I’m losing my mind.

@ruminating_redhead I’ve had that before. It was only for a while. My strongest theme is HOCD, but I’ve had others for short periods of tine

@annehatesocd I’m dealing with HOCD currently too. But the fear of schizophrenia puts in the this weird off feeling. I just hate it

I’ve had both. Harm ocd was my one of my first themes and have since mostly gotten over it. Homosexual ocd is what’s getting me down lately

How are tou handling it alone?? I tell myself that it just isn’t true and try to get over my odd thoughts. I’m afraid if I go on an SSRI, or some kinds of AD, it will cause true delusions.

@ruminating_redhead It’s kinda difficult I have a therapist but she’s not the most experienced with ocd. It’s not my biggest ocd theme at the moment. Medicine rarely causes things like that but I would voice your concerns with your doctor never online. And if you ever decide to start don’t look into side effects that much I did that and ended up worse.

@lulu23 Oh man, we sound one in the same. I’m too seeing a counselor that doesn’t seem to recognize ocd like I thought maybe she would. So that’s making it difficult. And I too started meds but stopped taking them on day three because I looked too far into people stories and side effecfs

@ruminating_redhead Well good thing you stopped after three days but if you try again don’t stop suddenly without talking to a doc. My psych let me quit cold turkey after a month and it created some of the worst times of my life. I’m working on getting over it still a month later. I will say that when I took it the first time I was seeing a different doctor who tapered me off my meds correctly and nothing ever happened

@lulu23 I was worried about stopping cold turkey, but it was only after three days so I felt i would be okay. I’m sorry you’re going through withdrawing from the meds. I have heard that is no fun.

@ruminating_redhead Thank you it’s tough but it’s ok I’m trying to stay strong and help others here while I deal with my struggles. And yea three days isn’t something I would worry about I hope we can both overcome this but for now just know you aren’t alone in your struggles.

@lulu23 I do too. I wish everyone here can because it’s so hard to live with. Just want to feel normal again