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I do. I stopped googling things a long time ago. It’s hard not to keep checking for me, especially for groinal responses. I have a kid so it’s a constant every day struggle. Just this morning I was dropping him off at school and he forgot to get his kiss from me before he closed the door so he wanted me to blow him a kiss but he said “blow me” instead ??♀️ cue the thoughts I’ve been managing with just medication and it’s still really tough. Pocd is hard. I wonder sometimes how ERT is going to go for me when literally nothing can convince me that the content of my thoughts are okay.
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How long have you been struggling with pocd? Do you have kids?
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Regarding googling and OCD, please check out this article when you get a chance: https://www.newstatesman.com/science-tech/2016/11/it-s-stepping-storm-how-ocd-can-affect-your-online-life
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Thanks for your reply yeah that does sound so difficult and I love kids but I don’t have any of my own although I do want to one day and this is making me feel like it’s going to get in the way for me in the future! That does sound really tough and even though we know deep down they’re untrue it’s just not enough to put our minds at ease! I’ve been struggling with it for four years now on and off, are you planning on seeing a therapist or are you currently?
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Hey all, I’ve been having some ebbs and flows in recovery, but for the most part I’ve really had a lot of improvements in quality of life since starting treatment in 2023. Something that really trips me up is ruminating on my past and looking for “evidence” or “proof” that the things that I’m obsessed with are real and not OCD. I spend quite a lot of time doing this. I wasn’t fully aware I was doing it until recently. Example: that I’m secretly gay and lying to everyone (I’m bi), that I’m a horrible person deep down, that I’ve never actually loved any person including my family, that I have the “wrong” political or religious beliefs. I look for proof in every corner of my past. It makes some sense that I think this way because with my previous therapist, who I saw for 8 years and did not diagnose me with OCD, we would look for evidence and proof that my obsessions are irrational and I learned to deal with them that way. At the time it was a lot of health concern and contamination themes, but I literally learned to ruminate and search for relief. But I just kept getting sicker and sicker until I got diagnosed with OCD. It’s a frustrating compulsion that keeps showing up for me. What if these scary things are true? What if it’s not OCD at all and I’m in denial? Have I lied my way into thinking I have OCD? It’s so hard. Anyway, I’m curious if anyone else has come across this in recovery? Let me know your thoughts and I hope you’re well. ❤️
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I’ve been stuck in this cycle for the last month or two and am not sure how to get out of it. Basically, I will work on ignoring the thoughts and not responding or engaging plus limiting/completely eliminating compulsions. After a week or two of constant work, the amount of intrusive thoughts in a day goes down. The anxiety each thought causes also goes down with some, but not all, thoughts passing without notice like they would for a normal person. The thoughts that do stick cause anxiety and make me want to ruminate or do other compulsions but I make sure to limit them. After a bit, I’m in a pretty good head space. This is usually when it goes down hill. I’ll start to question if I even have ocd because some of the thoughts (once again not all) pass without notice. The difficulty resisting compulsions goes down and so does the anxiety, only increasing the questioning. I spend a while questioning if I’ve ever had ocd in the first place and then something sets me off or the questioning itself becomes a trigger and I get stuck back into the same ocd cycle with constant rumination, anxiety, and other compulsions. This lasts for a week or two before I know I need to stop and try and work hard to get back to ignoring the thoughts. And the cycle just restarts over and over again. Does anyone have any tips to stop this from happening? It’s really harming my recovery as every few weeks I dive back into the same negative place I was.
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