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I do. I stopped googling things a long time ago. It’s hard not to keep checking for me, especially for groinal responses. I have a kid so it’s a constant every day struggle. Just this morning I was dropping him off at school and he forgot to get his kiss from me before he closed the door so he wanted me to blow him a kiss but he said “blow me” instead ??♀️ cue the thoughts I’ve been managing with just medication and it’s still really tough. Pocd is hard. I wonder sometimes how ERT is going to go for me when literally nothing can convince me that the content of my thoughts are okay.
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- 6y ago
How long have you been struggling with pocd? Do you have kids?
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- 6y ago
Regarding googling and OCD, please check out this article when you get a chance: https://www.newstatesman.com/science-tech/2016/11/it-s-stepping-storm-how-ocd-can-affect-your-online-life
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- 6y ago
Thanks for your reply yeah that does sound so difficult and I love kids but I don’t have any of my own although I do want to one day and this is making me feel like it’s going to get in the way for me in the future! That does sound really tough and even though we know deep down they’re untrue it’s just not enough to put our minds at ease! I’ve been struggling with it for four years now on and off, are you planning on seeing a therapist or are you currently?
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Hi everyone, I wanted to reach out to see if anyone else has experienced something similar with OCD and intrusive thoughts. I’ve been struggling during moments of intimacy because intrusive thoughts, particularly ones related to POCD, feel so ‘sticky’—like they’re all I can picture. Even though I really want the thoughts to go away, they persist, and I’ve been trying not to avoid intimacy because of them. However, that makes me feel like I’m somehow ‘enjoying’ the thoughts or images, which I really dislike. It’s like my brain is playing this awful trick, and it’s leaving me feeling confused and gross. I guess I’m supposed to not let the thoughts bother me and continue as if nothing’s wrong, but I’m scared that by doing so, I’m almost training myself to get off to them or something. This fear makes it so hard to trust myself in those moments, and it’s been overwhelming. If anyone else has been through this, how do you handle it?
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When an intrusive thought comes I can’t just say “that’s not true” and just move on. I always feel like I have to disprove the thought and be able to say it with confidence but the problem is that the ocd doesn’t allow me to feel and say it with confidence so I get stuck for hours or even days. How can I stop feeling like I need to do this?
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This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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