I just can’t get past what I’ve done which makes me scared I’m bi or lesbian

What happened? You can talk to me. I suffered with HOCD.

Yeah I went through that as well I use to fantise about boys and have boy crushes then my HOCD triggered me and made me feel it was a lie and then I started find girls attractive when really I knew I didn’t. But now I’m in a better place. I’ve had relationships with men and I’ve had men crushes and I’ve never actually liked girls in that way! Everything will get better sweety! I promise you and i know u find it hard to believe but trust me it does get better. Do not watch porn, watch video people coming out of the closet, look at photos or jump into a relationship for reassurance unless you really like this person . Because it will trigger you and make it a lot worse. You need speak to someone that you can trust in person or seek a therapist. Go mediate, or keep yourself distracted do something u love if you have a hobby! Do not stay home and overthink this shit because it will get worse go out and surround yourself with positive people x because that makes it a lot worse

Okay, you need to relax girl you were just a kid.. kids go weird phases in their life and I did that as well. You said “you just wanted to be friends” and now you think because you did that you were crushing on them and that’s when ocd tricks you and makes you overthink and question yourself when deep down you know you just wanted to be friends with them. HOCD is fucking cruel! I know what you are going through it’s a painful and scary situation to go through and it feels so real but it’s not it’s just your mind playing tricks. Now, do you find men attractive? How do you feel when it comes to boys? When u didn’t have HOCD did you use to have boy crushes? Have you been in a relationship with guys?

Let me say I’ve know heaps of people who kiss the same sex without having romantic feels because they just do it for fun and that doesn’t mean they’re gay or bi! Also lesbian porn let me tell you slot of straight women watch lesbian porn sounds weird but it’s actually true

Sorry I typed that really fast. I hope that makes sense!

You will get there once you stop overthinking it xx

I know I hope it goes away I’ve just not felt the same will thinking guys are hot for like a year but hope it will get better

How long have u had hocd

Also you’re really young don’t even be thinking about getting a boyfriend focus on yourself please

And I masterbated to the girls o was scared they were crushes I used to madyerbate to girls o wanna be and twerking videos I told my mum and she doesn’t think o am but I’m scared