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I wasn’t in an abusive relationship but it was the toxic “on off” kind, and I had these same thoughts with my ROCD and my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 2 years, the thoughts are annoying but I definitely don’t love my ex anymore. And hey if it brings you discomfort I wouldn’t say you’re still into him. I’m sorry you had to go through that, no one ever deserves it, but try to power through the thoughts the best you can, bc it seems like your boyfriend is amazing and you should be able to enjoy that!
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- 6y
This was like reading my own story. I was in an abusive relationship for 4 years, too. I get thoughts of him a lot and wonder if he was the one and sometimes feel like I might “miss” him, I know I don’t and I know I’m happy and in love with my current boyfriend (we’ve been together a little over a year). This was so weird to read because I experience the same things. Remember that you don’t have to hate someone to be over them, holding hate in your heart would just hurt you more. He hurt you, but he was still your first love and nothing can change that. You have to forgive him(not like actually go up to him and say you forgive him), but forgive him for yourself and forgive yourself too because these thoughts don’t mean anything and you are not to blame. I hope this helps, if you ever need to talk I’m here. I’ve had an extremely similar experience.
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@0823 can you email me? i’m not sure if we can add each other on here but if you need someone to talk to please don’t hesitate. dakotar517@gmail.com
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Wow.. my heart skipped a beat when I read the first line. I’ve been struggling with this same exact for a year now. I tried mentioning it to my therapist but she didn’t understand. I have dreams every night about my ex. Every moment I wonder if I should be with my boyfriend or not. My relationship is so great and I made a very thought out decision when I left my ex. Soooo annoying. I’m SO GLAD I’m not alone wow
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- 6y
@hrbrett i know exactly how you feel!!! you are not alone. please, feel free to reach out to me if you need someone to talk to
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@DakotaRose I will email you soon! And thank you!
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@dakotarose I’ll email you! I’ve been feeling crazy over this and felt so alone!
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I have this too
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- 25w
Lately, I’ve been struggling with feelings that I might be sabotaging myself in my relationship. By sabotage, I mean that I find it hard to stop engaging in compulsions, like seeking reassurance or overanalyzing my thoughts. I also sometimes behave badly with my boyfriend, and the intrusive thoughts I have can completely change my mood. I love my boyfriend—he’s such a good, beautiful, and wonderful person—but I’m afraid these thoughts are going to ruin things. I truly want to love him, but I’m scared. I know the thoughts are anxiety-driven, but they still make me question if I’m forcing myself to stay with him. Today, for example, I felt okay earlier, but when he called me on video, I suddenly felt like I didn’t feel anything, and I started thinking I don’t like how he looks. These thoughts hit me like a wave, and I panicked. Usually, I find him very attractive, but when these thoughts come, I feel sad and disconnected. What’s confusing is that I also have many moments—like today and in the past few days—where I’ve felt really good and I’ve felt love for him. I feel awful writing this because my boyfriend doesn’t deserve this, and I feel like I’m posting out of habit. It makes me scared that I don’t want to accept the truth, even though I know I care about him. I hate feeling this way because it feels like I’m betraying him by having these thoughts and posting them. Has anyone else dealt with these feelings of sabotaging their relationship or feeling like they’re forcing themselves to stay? How do you cope when the thoughts feel like they’re true, and how do you work through the fear of letting go of anxiety
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- 22w
When my boyfriend and I are apart, it honestly feels like I've lost all feelings for him. I start questioning everything, wondering if I even love him at all. Then, when we're finally together again, the memory of those earlier doubts creeps in and completely ruins the moment. I get so caught up in overthinking and analyzing my feelings that I can't even enjoy being with him. It's like I'm constantly second-guessing myself. The worst part is, sometimes later, when we're still together, I do feel the love. But then the anxiety kicks in again! I start worrying that I'm just faking it because I had those doubts earlier in the day. It's this endless cycle of questioning, doubting, and overthinking, and it's exhausting. I'm really struggling to stay present when we're together, and it feels like this constant cycle is preventing me from truly connecting with him. We have been together for three years and we love together, and I just started feeling this way about a month ago; it’s been almost every day since. One day, I randomly thought about breaking up with him. Our relationship is healthy, especially compared to my previous toxic one, where I was anxiously attached for two and a half years. My boyfriend is very supportive of me. I have talked to him about my doubts and everything I’m experiencing, and he continues to support, care for, and help me through it all. I am very grateful for that. One aspect of my current relationship that I would like to improve is our communication, but we are both willing to work on it together. I often find that my overthinking leads me to question whether I really want to try to fix things or if I’d rather just continue as we are. This creates a constant push and pull in our relationship. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Any advice on how to break this cycle and just be present in the moment? I'd love to hear from anyone who's been through something like this.
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- 17w
My psychologist tells me because my thoughts are based off of facts/ broken boundaries which is why I am having thoughts of am i in love , am I settling , and feeling guilty I should let him go to find someone who wouldn’t doubt him that I do not have rocd. She states rocd is intrusive , irrational thoughts not based off of real facts and I may have ptsd not ocd. He kissed someone else before we were official and he finds a certain type of female attractive that I find disgusting . So I spin about these issues all day long to the point I’m so unhappy with him and had to break up . It’s been over a month now but I’m still severely anxious and depressed The thing is I can’t stop thinking about this 24/7 with severe anxiety and depression and nothing is helping me . Can someone please tell me their thoughts
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