MeMeMe
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- 6y
ArukawiArukawi
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- 6y
I'm not scared of being gay per se, but like others have said I'm afraid I don't know who I am and I've been hiding it even from myself! I'm 24 and in a wonderful relationship with my boyfriend but I'm constantly worrying about if I'm lying to him about really loving him, or if I'll leave him for a woman. Ultimately I'm afraid I'll hurt my loved ones because I can't get it together and figure out who I really am :(
cookiescookies
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it isn’t that i am scared of being gay, it is that i feel unsure and that i am lying to myself and others when i flirt, talk to, or think i like a guy. i think, oh no, what if i actually like girls and i was wrong all along? am i different than i thought? it’s the change that scares me and uncertainty.
Cat_attack Cat_attack
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- 6y
It’s more the fact that it’s your OCD. I had fear of being a lesbian for YEARS. Yet I was never homophobic. What was terrifying was feeling like I was losing my grip on reality,as in how could I have not known I was gay?! Have I been suppressing these symptoms my whole life?! And so on..this is what made it terrifying.
MeMeMeMeMeMe
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- 6y
Oh okay. I understand now. Thank you both for sharing.
Tolly537Tolly537
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- 6y
I struggle with these thoughts and they are not fears about being homosexual. I am a heterosexual women and have felt that way ever since I was a little girl. And I have always dreamed of being with a guy I loved for the rest of my life, but then these thoughts came up! They say what if your lying to yourself and others. The uneasiness and fear comes from the thought you have to live a life (for me, being lesbian) that would not be pleasurable to you now and in the future. It is truly debilitating.
trishmarietrishmarie
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- 6y
Our you just curious asking like how a person who is gay would be scared?
MeMeMeMeMeMe
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No, I was wondering about people who have intrusive thoughts that they might be homosexual and it frightens them.
MeMeMeMeMeMe
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That make sense (in an ocd kind of way) ha I get it now.
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Is "homosexual OCD" usually homophobia
If you truly aren''t homophobic you wouldn't be afraid of being gay unless in very specific cases of bisexual cycling, what is the difference?
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hocd and scared it’s internalized homophobia
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