Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

As the saying goes with rocd sufferers love is a choice or is love really a choice well If I break it down like this then yea I believe it is I’m choosing to stare in the face of ocd and scream u will not beat me I will rise from whatever he’ll u take me to to be with my partner no matter what damaging thoughts I think u are sending ur only making the future me stronger I yes I as a human being want to be with my partner and that is my choice as me not ocd so throw at me why ever u will I will grow stronger with every breathe I inhale u might put me to my knees but I will always rise up .... so is love a choice yes I believe so I choose to give my love to my partner whatever pain ocd decides to distress me with I was once happy so I can regain that ground and be happy again ... Keep fighting people

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

But I still struggle with the thoughts of not liking him

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

I don't know what the hell happened

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Was u together long? Iv been with my partner for 6 years and were due to. Marry this. Year

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

Because I got anxiety

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

Yeah, I don't know what love is...I thought it was a choice and now I'm questioning that

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

Thank you...very much appreciated, we have been in correspondence

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Glad for u don't give up on what u may have we can never be sure of its right or not we. Just have to accept the uncertainty as hard as it is and keep moving forward good luck

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much for your time, I don't know if it's my ocd or if it's just my authentic feelings

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

In my opinion if its constantly there not a mins let up and u feel shocking for thinking the things and feeling the things ur feeling then I'd say ocd

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

I gave up the fight and ended my relationship...I kept having strong feelings that I did not love him...they wouldn't go away, I would wake up with the urge to break up with him and I'd push it aside but then it just took over and I couldn't push it aside anymore :'(

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

And do u feel better for. Doing that or not

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

Both

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Do u miss him?

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

@gavsherry Of course

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

I feel like I wasn't in complete control of my emotions and thought they must be true if I feel this way...I'm glad to be rid of the thoughts but not entirely glad to be rid of the relatipnship

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

See I can't stand the thought of being without her it then I get urges to break up etc and do I really love her I know I love her but keep battering myself with the intrusive thoughts

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

We were together for 8 months

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

We met in July and then we started dating in oct

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

My rocd just started out of. No where after 5 years together happily and I just woke. Up 1 morning and. All. These thoughts were there and anxiety was through the roof

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

Well it started with the thoughts and then the feeling I was not in love and then the feeling I was a liar amd it just snowballed and I could no longer enjoy his company :'(

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Iv had the same but then seemed to have got through it but relapsed a little

Racheljustine

Date posted: 5y

@gavsherry Really??? With your current gf?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Racheljustine Yes suffered on and off for 2 years I get to the point where I'm getting physical urges to end it then I just break down with emotion and relief because she is who I want to be with we get on great so why change it she is a fantastic partner and mother so why change it I really love her when it matter the most all the negativity in between is just my ocd doing its thing don't give up as I said iv passed it and relapsed a few times if it was true and what I really wanted I wouldn't feel anything I'd just go but it's so upsetting because she means so much to me

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

How people define being in love is a focus point also I see being in love as going to the worst possible scenarios life can throw at u and if ur partner is there unconditionally no matter what then they are worth giving ur love to that's why I say loves a choice not the Hollywood bull 90% of the human race believe it to be

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Couple of things my dad said before he passed away for every setback there is always a comback to be a winner we must first learn to lose and to appreciate being on top u have to have looked up from the bottom ready to climb up... I try and keep these theories with me as I genuinely want to be with my partner if I listened to my thoughts and feelings all the time I would never have left the house and got a job or tried new things that scared me incase of failure I'm getting better but as the saying goes it will get worse before it gets better we can't change yesterday but we can try and change tomorrow good luck stay strong u can do this and if u feel like u wanna. Talk. To ur ex if u feel scared go with it if u don't thats OK to but we have to come. To a point that we say NO OCD I'M NOT LETTING U KEEP DOING THIS TO ME

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