I don't want to accept the fact that me being bi is true or could be true. How can I try to accept it though? My fear is if I accept it, it will come true. It feels like it really will.

For me my biggest fear is could I enjoy sex with both sexes? I hate this and wish it could go away. I don't want to be bi and if I am I cant change anything about that and is super fucking scary.

@Lina I started thinking that I am bi too,honestly I prefer it than being a lesbian but I wanna be straight

@Lina But idk usually bi or homosexual people dont feel that anxious and when I have false attractions (at least I think that they are false) I get really anxious and start crying every time

@pgam14 This is my difficulty with my OCD. Feelings flood me of anxiety and adrenaline and I tell myself that I would act out. Worst feeling because then I find myself avoiding more.

@Bing When I imagine sex scenes with girls as erp I dont feel that anxious usually scenarios dont scare me that much but when it happens in reality like the false attractions

@Bing The flood of adrenaline I think is what scares me the most cuz it feels like I like it.

@Lina Same here girl

@Lina Also your case is pretty much the same as mine.Do you wanna switch instagram and talk about it cause I wanna ask you some things about your hocd if it is not a problem?

@pgam14 @pgam14 Yeah sure my instagram is linad1601

@Lina This is exactly my feeing with the adrenaline. Mine is POCD and I have a 2 year old that insists I hold him. So tough sometimes. But scenarios don’t cause me stress.

@Lina I added u

I actually don't that is why im so scared is because I have no fricking clue and I feel like if I were really straight I would know I was. I want to be straight but that doesn't mean that I am.

@Lina I know how hard it is. You're having this unpeaceful and restless feeling but trust me you're going to be ok. Our sexual identity is default, set from our birth. You know clearly you never had any sexual or romantic feelings for girls and you only had them for guys. Also you enjoyed your crushes on guys.

@chamomile But that is the thing I don't trust myself and I did some things when I was 12 that scare me into that being my bisexuality developing or whatever. I remember even having a thought that I didn't want guys to think I liked girls and then I was like do i like girls. It terrifies me that I've been in denial all these years.

@Lina Same, when I was 12 I really thought I was bisexual for almost a year though I never had any feelings for girls. Them kissing me felt weird too. This memory almost traumatizes me and makes me feel like I'm in denial too. But we can't be too certain that we aren't bisexual in the future. It scares me a lot to think I'll become gay/bi in the future too.

@chamomile But for now try being confident about your actual orientation, that you're heterosexual. I know it feels like you're lying to yourself and forcing and in denial but that's the best we can really do. I feel like I'm in denial and forcing myself to be straight but I genuinely don't want to be a lesbian/bi :(