I'm struggling with ocd and hocd what helps you on bad days to feel better and to ease the symptoms because it's really bad

Sorry to hear that honestly I would love to cry but i can't mabye it's the antidepressants yeah life can be crap sometimes

@matt 05 I'm extremely sorry for you too but just try doing something like exercise or doodling

@chamomile I'll try it's just always there like someone just nagging all the time

@matt 05 I know, I feel that too. But you need to continue. Please don't lose hope. Stay strong ??

@matt 05 Drink some water and take care of yourself as much as possible

@chamomile I'm alive but not living at the moment I'm trying not to lose hope but I feel so drained it dosen't help that I don't have friends or a girlfriend so I feel lonely as well my parents try to help but I feel so lonely

@chamomile Thank you

@matt 05 Same. But you are kind of lucky :) my family members have ridiculed me a lot for having mental illnesses and the doctors have disregarded me too. But I hope we'll stay strong in our journey and you're welcome :)

@chamomile I'm sorry to hear that aswell I don't understand the stigma people who don't have it really have no idea we don't want mental illness we don't choose it either so I wish you well in your journey too

@matt 05 Same to you again, hope you're doing fine, my anxiety kind of reduced because I ate a bit of chocolate lol

@matt 05 Honestly people who don't have OCD would never understand why we are like this. Like we don't choose it like a cloth from a store. It comes and latches to us. We don't want this at all :(

@chamomile So true it's not fair

@matt 05 Sometimes I wish I could have atleast one person that could support me. I've become desolate from this nonstop torture

@chamomile We can chat if you'd like too I'd be fine with that

@matt 05 Oh thank you, but I don't think I should, it might make you more anxious. If you're comfortable then sure we can chat :)

@chamomile I think we could support each other

@matt 05 Yeah you're right, would you like to chat here or another social media?

@chamomile It's up to you do you have a Facebook page we could use messanger

@matt 05 I only use insta. If you don't have it we can chat here, anything is fine. It all comes down to supporting each other :)

@chamomile We can chat on this if you want to then

@matt 05 Yeah :). We should talk about something not OCD to get us distracted and not to anxious. So what are you doing?

@chamomile Not much at the moment I'm just on my phone I'm from Australia so it's 4 am at the moment but I'm normally up this time haha what about you?

@matt 05 Nothing much just chatting with some of my other friends from the app, giving them some support. It's night in my country, what are your plans for the day?

@chamomile Don't really have a plan for today probably just play video games or something I don't really get out much it's good you friends from the app

@matt 05 What kind of thing do you like also are you a guy or a girl if you don't want to tell me that's fine I'm just interested

@matt 05 Oh my only is to go to sleep when I feel sleepy lol. I'm playing Sims right now. To just make a life in a game I know I can't have :)

@matt 05 I'm a girl. I like video games, biology and anything that science (I really sound like need material don't I?) And aesthetic music

@chamomile Nerd material**

@chamomile I like science aswell i like thing like space and stuff like that I'm a big sports fan I enjoy music some old like queen the Beatles but also stuff like linkin park too if you have any questions feel free to ask

@matt 05 Ooo I see you're into astronomy, that cool! What are some modern day artists you like a lot?

@chamomile I find Neil degrasse tyson interesting and Stephen hawking aswell

@matt 05 I see, well Stephen Hawking's philosophy and his theories were something really astonishing. :)

@matt 05 Well how old are you? You can answer if you want to, I was just curious lol

@chamomile I'm 21 what about you

@matt 05 I'm 14

@chamomile Alright thank for telling me

@matt 05 um welcome. Anywys how's your day going averall?

@chamomile Not great to be honest just struggling

@matt 05 You?

@matt 05 Oh I'm sorry, but dont worry, you're strong and you'll get through. My anxiety reduced after having a lot of water and chocolate but I'm still afraid of my HOCD, like I have this underlying fear in my head. I was panicking an hour ago because of a post but I'm kind of ok kind not :(

@chamomile Thanks I'll try to stay strong yeah the hocd is so frustrating like I know I'm 100% straight but the hocd still causes distress

@matt 05 Yes!! Exactly!! I know I like guys more than anything else but my HOCD just makes me doubt every single THING!!! I'm so sick of this :(

@chamomile I don't if this helps but ocd is known as the doubting illness hence why we doubt so much to do with it

@matt 05 I read it somewhere but thanks for reminding me again :) I just wish I wouldn't doubt something so basic about myself :(. Like I find some girls pretty and admire them and wish I could be like them but now I panic at every girl I look :(

@chamomile I'm the same it's so frustrating we know we're straight but the hocd just tries to make us doubt yeah like I'm overweight so if I see a guy who is fit I'll be like I'd like to look like that then hocd will go oh what are you into him it's like of course not but then the intrusive thoughts start it's so frustrating and mentally and physically draining

@matt 05 Yes, I feel like ive been in straight phase my whole life and I literally wanna cry. I do physical compulsions which are even more hurtful sometimes

@chamomile I do the compulsions too it's makes it even worse we are so similar when it comes to this only difference is I'm a guy and you're a girl

@matt 05 Yep, I just wish I would never doubt. I'm sadcause my crush is going to leave next month and I really wish I could tell him. He's been like my only comfort from my problems and HOCD especially :(

@chamomile That's tough if you don't mind me asking when you say leave what do you mean do you mean school maybe I can give some advice

@matt 05 He is leaving the current branch of the school and moving to a new one. Could you give advice and also tell me if he likes me if I told some signs? Sorry I'm being pathetic but I really want to hear tips from an actual guy :( and their opinion

@chamomile Yeah I can try to help your not being pathetic but remember it's just my opinion so I could be wrong but tell me and I will try to help

@matt 05 When I said I could be wrong I mean my opinion you can ask me anything you want I'm here to help

@matt 05 Ok so here are some signs I a d some friends had noticed: 1. He used to glance at me if I was talking to anybody 2. He's always near me like at any event, either he sits in a spot or stands near me. 3. He used to stare at me if I was in his field of view or just turn towards me 4. He kind of turns in my direction a lot, either sits turning me or his shoes are in my direction. 5. He makes eye contact (a lot of it) 6. He takes things from my hand really nervously 7. He just speaks really little to me or none at all even when I'm asking the question to him, his friend answers and then he goes "y-yeah" or just kind of speaks nervously loud (idk if it makes sense) 8. He's kind of stopping or like trying to avoid making eye contact or looking at me ever since the news of his class leaving the branch started circulating the school. I'm so confused like he gives mixed signals :(

@matt 05 That took a bit of time I'm sorry lol

@chamomile It does sound like he likes you I mean if I like a girl I will tend to look at her does he try to spend time with you as much as he can like make excuses to spend time with you I know it's not easy but the only way you will know for sure is if you tell him also are you friends

@matt 05 No we aren't friends like I said we don't talk a lot or at all. He's pretty shy and mostly hangs out with specific friends (that are only boys)

@matt 05 I developed a crush on him out of the blue really. My mother told me she noticed him glancing and following me around in a recent event at our school

@chamomile When him and I first met, he didn't say hi and spoke just a bit but he asked me a personal question a week after we met and that was "what's your birth year?" I'm still confused to this day why he asked me that. (That was the only question he's ever asked me)

@chamomile Yeah it's quite complicated um I'm not sure if I'm honest maybe try to talk to him I think if he likes you he would be happy to talk maybe make an excuse to talk to him like if in class you need help with something it's difficult to say whether he does like you or not but as I said telling him you like him is the best thing to do I'll say this if he say yes then great you can keep in touch online and get to know him better if no then at least you know it might hurt a bit and get embarrassed but look sometimes that happens so that's the only way you will know for sure I know that dosen't really help sorry about that

@matt 05 Well ok thanks I'll try. It's weird cause I do speak to him a bit but whenever I do he just raises his voice in nervousness and when I'm around he speaks loudly like trying to get attention (usually he speaks low around the boys)

@matt 05 I'm grateful you helped me really :)

@chamomile I'm glad to have helped i'm here to help if I can any question just ask

@matt 05 Honestly he's been acting weird around me really. Speaking to him feels like either he's gonna go nervous or I'm going burst out nervous. Can I tell something else? It's about him again...

@chamomile Yeah

@matt 05 I've heard that when you laugh, you look at the person you either like or feel closest too right? This lad does some stupid thing and then laughs but looks at me or in my direction. Does that mean anything?

@chamomile I've never heard that before probably dosen't mean anything but I'm not sure sorry

@matt 05 Ok that's completely fine. I hope it doesn't really haha but thanks for actually helping me :)

@chamomile Glad I could help

@matt 05 Thanks again for being so nice. I really thought that question would be dumb and pathetic to ask especially to another male

I'm extremely glad to talk to you too. Just really thank you :). Please stay strong and I really hope we both can achieve our goals and complete this horrible journey

@chamomile You stay strong too and yeah remember if you need to chat just message me I'll help if I can

@matt 05 Yes I will and you can message me too if you'd like thanks again :)

You're welcome :)

@chamomile Hi just thought I'd check and see how you're going I'm still struggling bad at this moment really bad