Monday check in: if your feelings were a Crayola crayon, what color would they be? What would you name the crayon?

It sounds thoughtful. Makes me wonder if saying you feel different than you do is a pattern for you

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I guess it kind of is but can you describe your thought again so I can understand a bit better. Sorry if it came out as a bit rude :(

@chamomil& You named a lavender crayon "melancholy pink". If I looked just at the name, I'd guess it was pink, but it's actually lavender. It reminded me of the times I say I'm feeling one thing when I'm actually feeling something else

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Oh ok that's what you meant, I do that a lot actually (I've been doing it since I was a child). Even when I feel sad I just try convincing mysf I'm happy when I'm not. It's been a pattern since an long time. Also the colour would probably be a mix of teal/blue (melancholy) and lavender (pink). [It's a weird combination]

@chamomil& Oh, gotcha. I guess I think of lavender as a purple color, not a pink one

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Yep exactly why I named it melancholy pink cause I feel sad/blue but also happy at the same time. Envisioning that particular feelings in a shade of colour I just envisions teal and lavender mixed together

Nice! That's sorta the color I'm imagine 'booger flavored" Bertie Botts beans in Harry Potter

I can feel like this could symbolise something but I can't put my finger on it. Something that isn't even visible like our mental disorders

@chamomil& what's your obsessions?

@survivorr Hocd, hygiene OCD, body dismorphia, my weight (ED) etc.

Lol I feel so dumb because I asked why and now I delete that comment. Did you read my comments on this thread? :)

But why? And thank you for calling me logical :). What part did you even find logical though? Everything I wrote seems dumb when I read it lol

Oh god most of them are extremely weird ? but thank you. Anyways what are your obsessions?

@chamomil& My obsessions starts from intrusive thoughts like what if i keep something valuable or sneeky in my pocket and my compulsions is that I have to do something to protect it from falling, usually with my non dominant hand(mostly) ,or any other ways to make sure everything will be ok.

@survivorr @survivorr Oof that must be tough. Honestly I can't deal with intrusive thoughts like those, I lose a lot of things. I just lost a pen today lol. Anyways how arer you doing? :)

I get your fear and the awkwardness you feel :(. My HOCD makes me do stuff that is so illogical and weird that I feel freaking awkward ?

Nope, just some good ol' caffeine and chocolate :)