Hi! Does anyone ever feel like their OCD manifests when they talk to others? in a way that goes, “scary internal thought” right in the middle of their words and then you don’t know if you spoke the scary thought out loud or not? I’ve been having a CHALLENGING time with this the past year. I’m doing a LOT better with a lot of work. just wanted to see if I can help anyone or if I can see how anybody else handles it. thanks y’all ?. So much love to everybody.

Jack brown

Date posted: 5y

Good Evening OCD Community, i hope all is well and everybody is having a good day or trying to. Sometimes as long as you try its okay. Does anybody experience your facial expressions just in a bad mood because you are fighting the OCD monster inside. People come up to me all the time and say you actually seem likena cool dude, you just didnt look like it. If only i told him about my OCD ??????? Honestly people that OCD are probably the nicest people and would do anything for anybody we may just not look like it because we are fighting the monster!

vvvvv

Date posted: 5y

yes!!! i don’t really anymore, but i used to!!

Fathomable

Date posted: 5y

Yes! I’m socially isolated partly because it’s so difficult to be around people with the intrusive thoughts of memories, bad things about myself, negative thoughts I feel guilty about etc. Makes me want to hide under a bed and never be seen. And I’ve had times where it’s so loud I’ve wondered if I just said it, and always feels like they somehow know what went through my head. Earliest I remember having the problem was around 15 and it contributed to why I actually dropped out of school despite doing great academically. I just had no idea how to talk about it :( it’s caused me periods of being very shy around others even though that’s not my personality. Ugh. It means I most like to spend time around my family because I know they love me the most and don’t care if I’m not perfect, so I tend to get it the least with them. Other than that I guess I just need to do ERP about it, and some therapy for the underlying self esteem stuff, I know I have a lot of internalised shame and bad self image from childhood trauma which I have periods of still struggling with.

vvvvv

Date posted: 5y

Thank you for sharing ??? ive had OCD since about that age too. It’s only most recently formed into this though! The past year or so. When I first got it I went through what it seems like you are going through. It was some of the HARDEST parts of my life. Top three for sure. I actually developed it while in therapy- was really helpful because she understands where I’m at and explained it to me in helpful ways. That it attacks what you most love. I hope your journey in therapy and ERP is healing. I can tell you that even though I still have it, my dr and I found a great medicine (lexepro and buspar is what I take) and in combination w therapy and realizing that I’ve never said those things out loud- as much as I think I did- gives me some peace. My therapist mentioned I could focus on my breath, breathe in through my mouth and out through my nose (instead of vis versa) and focus on my mouth- my mouth didn’t move! I hope this helps. We’re gonna get through this, I know it.

Jack brown

Date posted: 5y

Yeshappens all the time

Jack brown

Date posted: 5y

Good to hear about this one i had a bad experience over the weekend on a POCD theme like this lol?

vvvvv

Date posted: 5y

I’m so sorry that happened!!! It’s sooo difficult. You’re not alone ? I left some tips my counselor gave me above!!!

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