I need to talk about my mom again please? :(

Today she started again in the morning after I told her I didn't like her food. And she just went on to say that it would've been better if she never had me and even called me a bitch. I don't know why I felt like I deserved it, after I arrived home again she started to tell me please me like she was trying to get something. Is that toxic behaviour? I feel like it is

@chamomil& First of all, she's your mom, she doesnt want anything from you. When you show someone affection, you see them as a potential asset. But your mother doesnt feel that way, she just loves you because youre her daughter. And as you said yesterday, she can be toxic sometimes and you'll have to get used to it, and her wanting forgiveness is not because she wants something for you. Have you tried telling her that you feel that way?

@HopefullyOptimistic I told her but she immediately gets angry and flips the tables saying it's my fault and that I'm making her mentally exhausted and not supporting her. I try supporting but she doesn't support me when I say I have issues with my mental stuff and says that I do it for "attention" :(

@chamomil& Oh boy, looks like you're just gonna have to try and get used to her attitude. She might be a great mother, but sometimes even my mom says I'm whining and blames me. But she's nonetheless supportive. So is yours, kind of blunt but deep down loves you a lot. Keep that in mind whenever you talk to her!

@HopefullyOptimistic I don't feel like she does after the amount of times she's called me a bitch, shamed and mocked me and told me she wished I wasn't her daught or even born. But ok I guess. Thank you :)

@chamomil& Anytime! But let me ask you something, was she always that way? If you don't want to answer its it's fine!

@HopefullyOptimistic She was always emotionally unstable and would fight with my dad a lot. I never realised this till now but she has always seemed emotional support from me since I was a kid. Like she'd always expect me to give her kisses and hugs. And I did but now as I'm growing up she doesn't give me my personal space and wants me to invest my time into her.

She never got that parental love from her mom so .it's like she substitutes me to get that :(. Anyways thank you so much for helping me :). I'll try not to care too much and take a toll on me

And I'm extremely sorry about your family issues :(. Honestly I've witnessed similar things happening in my family since a young age so isn't new really :(. I can feel you a lot

Oh that's good :) that stuff is chill