MeMeMe
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- 6y
JayJay-202JayJay-202
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- 6y
You have found this virtual community that does understand. Remember to find gratitude for even the small things when the bad times come.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 6y
It’s hard when I am 25 and so many of my peer friends are married and getting married and even having kids and I am stuck fighting this debilitating illness. Sometimes I watch people (who do have their own struggles for sure) and I go if only you knew...even just a portion of how crushing this is... It gets lonely enough having lost my mom to cancer a few years ago. Most young people haven’t been through something like that. All of this makes me an extremely compassionate and understanding person. But it is very lonely.
Sunshine1Sunshine1
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- 6y
Its hard sometimes for people to understand my mom tells me too just not think about my thoughts yah if only that worked
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 6y
@MeMeMe I’m sorry. I hear you. OCD is so commonly misunderstood. There are so few people without it who get it. I have a very supportive church community, but I am the only one with OCD and as much as they love me and I love them, it can get very lonely. There are many others in my church with mental illness so I am not alone in that sense. We have at least one person with schizophrenia, a couple with PTSD, some recovering alcoholics, people who struggle with depression and some who have some sort of psychosis....These people are all lovely people and we can understand and support each other in ways others in the church can’t. But being the only one with OCD gets lonely. It’s a debilitating illness.
SunflowerGirlSunflowerGirl
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- 6y
I feel your pain. I am sick and tired of being me, as well. Sending you support.
MeMeMeMeMeMe
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- 6y
How come nobody close to me can understand? How come nobody will take me seriously? I told my mom I feel like I’m getting depressed but I don’t feel sad and she laughed. Told me to do jumping jacks. When I talk to my husband about how I feel he acts annoyed.
MeMeMeMeMeMe
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- 6y
I just wish I had one person that could understand and care
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