What are you feeling right now? Is it a feeling that is pleasant or unpleasant? How large or small is it? - I'm feeling pretty disenchanted with everything today. Very blah. Like "what's the point". It's unpleasant, but not real intense. It does feel big though, like a cloud filling my whole room

Would you like to talk about it?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie My goal was to resist compulsions this week but I failed but there’s always next week

@JS0406 Or tomorrow ?

@OCDone True maybe I’ll start small try 2 days then 4 days etc and see how I get on

@JS0406 I hope you do and if you feel like sharing how it went I'd like to hear about it. I plan on doing the same thing.

@JS0406 You can also pick just one compulsion to resist all day, instead if all of them

About anything in specific? I hope it lasts :)

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Because fuck OCD! Irrational, doesn’t make any sense and it latches on to BS - I am grateful that I can see past it now and that my life is slowly coming back on track.. I hope anyone reading this has faith that everything will be better! You got this!!

Your self esteem is taking a beating today, huh? I'm sad to hear that ☹️

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I don't think I feel terrible about my life, just unsatisfied. Even if OCD suddenly vanished I would feel pretty far behind. Largely do to OCD I have a low paying job, have never dated, and find it difficult making and maintaining friendships. At 35, it seems most people my age don't have those problems, or not to the same degree. Comparing is probably a losing game, but it's hard to disregard what I don't have when I seem to see it all around me.

@Ben84 It is a fact, whether you like it or not, that you are not defined by your mental disorder(s) or the things you have not achieved. With that said, there is nothing more attractive than someone who recognizes their own self-perceived "failures" or "deficiencies" and doesn't hide them, but shows them to others with confidence. On the other hand, if you show people that your failures define you, then they will believe they do.

@NickC Confidence is great, but it only gets you so far if you don't have money to go out and do things with people.

How can we help you remind yourself that you are worthy?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie honestly i don’t know, i guess i just never rlly learned to love myself or thought of myself as worthy :(

@saaaam I hear you. We learn really young how to feel about ourselves

Interesting :) nice job noticing feelings that are different from one another

@NOCD Advocate - Katie And also bored and playful but not much lol

The anxiousness and frustration is unpleasant of course, feels significant. Feel aware of how I feel which is good. Thoughtful of those around me, whether they are dealing with something themselves or just with everyday sort of stuff.

@Evelyn4416 You're able to put the feelings in context too, whether they're directed inwards at yourself or outward to others

:( some days are really down in the dumps

Literally my therapist said today she thinks I have OCD because of my CPTSD from my shitty childhood. Yet if you bring up anything he might have possibly done wrong he gets defensive and brings up the very few occasions that he did anything right. My life is a total mess and he's making me feel worse over a TEABAG

@Louw I'm so sorry