- Username
- nocdmike
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I am trying to accept the uncertainty of my obsessions
Yes it is, it can change obsessions
Also please don't compare your thoughts and feelings to other people, it differs from person to person
Why don’t you try sharing your story and maybe others will relate to you?
Ok
As I write this I am sitting outside on my porch. My whole life has been ruled by something that I can understand and so far it seems like that is the OCD.I have acted convulsively my whole entire life but Wait hold on I take that back I have acted compulsively since junior year in high school With buying cigarettes or smoking pods or drinking a lot.I am trying to figure out my obsessions. I figure if I know what my obsessions are than I can change them. I just got diagnosed with this about a month ago and I was hospitalized for about six daysFind my thoughts make me feel like a terrible person. Not really a terrible person but kind of like Ashamed I guess. I have gained a lot of weight because I am on antipsychotics For schizophrenia. I'm not sure which diagnosis it is I think it is both of them low for me.
I have felt impulsive and fast my whole life and recently accepted my OCD diagnosis although I cannot always relate to the exact situation someone is dealing with, I had found it comforts me knowing I'm not alone in this crazy, loop hole, intrusive thoughts OCD life. Also I have found ttalking and my OCD makes me feel stronger and more in control. The stories do not need to be the same, but the feelings and spirals we all go through is helpful for me. We are here for you!!
Is there anyone else on here that gave into one of their obsessions? I feel disgusting. I feel like if this app would have been a thing years ago I wouldn’t have. But I’m always with the what if or this would have/could have happened. It makes me question if I even have ocd and maybe I’m just a sociopath (although my previous therapist had told me I definitely do have ocd) being on this app sometimes makes me feel worse like I was such a weak person I let it eat me away until I was going to commit suicide and then decided no maybe I’m just a sociopath let me see. I’m struggling with suicidal thoughts because of it and have been for years. NOTE: please don’t flag this, I am not going to commit suicide. Suicidal thoughts don’t necessarily mean you are premeditating and in my case, I am not. Also I am TERRIBLY sorry if this makes anyones ocd reading this worse and you start to think “maybe I will do something” you most likely WON’T. I’m writing this because I have NEVER seen this side (where you gave in) of OCD written on here by anyone!
Hi guys! I believe I have an OCD since I was around 12. I remember then I had a lot of intrusive thoughts about religious things and I had a counting compulsion (I thought that If I don't count to 8 in specific moments, someone gets hurt) During later years it was really changing - I stopped being religious, so the OCD theme also stopped. Then I had I reckon SOCD, harm OCD and many others. But for know my main topic is ROCD. But because of the fact that this is my main intrusive thoughts topic I start to have this awful thoughts that this is not OCD, I'm just with the wrong person and I need to accept this fact. This is really struggling for me, because i really love my bf and Im in the healthy realtionship but Im so tired of having this kind of thoughts, sometimes I cannot sleep because of them. Also the fact that I've never been diagnosed (I cannot go on theraphy right now unfortunately) is another trigger because I have thoughts that I dont really have OCD, I just making this up, because I cannot accept the truth. Is there someone with similar experiance? Or maybe someone who can have advice for me?
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