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Keep up the great work! Make a new post about it, you seem like you're making good progress there
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How can we help make your life more positive?
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That’s meant to say six weeks not swim week
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Just knowing that you have taken the time to read and care is lovely! Thankyou! Some times just takes someone to say yeah! I get you! Xx other than that I don’t know how to start! Xx
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I think we’ve all been exactly where you are right now. OCD can be so Isolating, huh? It sounds like you’re in therapy, which is great. Is it OCD-related therapy, or just talk therapy? I’m sure your children appreciate you smiling and keeping a brave face on for them, but don’t think you have to keep that up. My mom went through some pretty dark depression when I was a kid. I like to think I would have been open to her saying, “Mom’s not doing so good today, kiddo. Can I get a hug?”
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At night it is the worst for me because I’m relaxing and my brain thus has time to race and race and race and thought start piling up. It gets tiring to say the least. Try to stay strong. I know it’s hard. I’m actually having a very bad morning myself but am trying to get thru it. It’s an every day battle but trying to remain positive and going to therapy is so helpful. I look forward to therapy actually. Good luck!
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How did the rest of the day go for you yesterday? I know how you feel. I’m sure many of us in the group know how you feel
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Thanks everyone! And yesterday was tiring! Today was tiring, I tried reaching out to few people but they were busy! Then I had a mm ocd feeling that this being an open group and what if my partner is secretly on it and reading my posts or whatever! Things I can’t share with him! I know it’s insane but that how I over analyse stuff! Kids at their dads so just me, just sat in silence for a king while contemplating things! Tried to explain to my partner a little in the respect of I don’t know when I will feel better and can see him, he asks which is sweet but I take it as pressure and found myself telling him that I have so much going on, even if I snap out of it we still might not be ok as am dealing with relationship issues too! I just felt I had to be honest but was like he can’t process it and I’ll get better and we will be happy again! House is very quiet and with all recent burglaries in my area I feel a little anxious! So checking more! Decided to take up exercise ?? been eating pretty good and I hope it will give me a distraction! How is everyone today!! Thanks for your responses and for caring xxxx
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That’s great you are exercising and eating healthier! I’m doing ok today.. been a tiring day but settling down now. You should post more in new threads too, you seem to have a lot of OCD information and knowledge!
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Thankyou.. I have studied quite a bit on it in my need to understand more.. psychiatrist even said am very well informed, although sometimes knowing the logic behind something doesn’t make it any easier to battle but just understand what’s happening to you! If I can help others I will! Also done panic course to understand and help with that so guess could help with techniques for people to help with that! Ended my relationship today... after much deliberation, it does not feel Good now but for the best in future! Sad times but a decision none the less! Now to try move forward! Hurting someone’s feelings is not in my nature so I feel pretty crumby! But better now that further down the line! Just hope I keep the faith in the decision I took so long to reach and the pesky repetitive demons keep away for now! How are you?! Xxx
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- 22w
I don’t have much of a support system outside of my bf, so I find myself here a lot. I think I just need to vent, so forgive me if I do this too often. It helps to have a community of people who truly understand. I haven’t felt this debilitated by mental illness in months. There has to be some explanation, maybe it’s hormonal, because I feel like I’ve completely lost myself. The panic hits in waves, sudden and overwhelming, like my head is submerged in lava, burning and suffocating. Then, for a brief moment, I feel almost normal and wonder what all the fear was about. But it never lasts. The chaos always comes back. I even considered going to the ER because I’m not sure I can trust myself anymore. Something has to be wrong, because this isn’t me. My life isn’t perfect, but it’s not unbearable either. Since I withdrew from school, I’ve been so much less stressed that even my cycle, which has been irregular for years, has somehow regulated itself. But even with that, I feel like a failure. I was one semester away from finishing, so close, but OCD hit me harder than it ever has. It felt like drowning, gasping for air, reaching for something solid, only to be dragged under again and again. Now, I feel like that again, but worse. I feel hollow, like something is wrong with me at my core. I don’t just feel sad; I feel broken. I break down into uncontrollable sobs every few hours, and I don’t even know why. I just know that whatever is happening, OCD is taking full advantage of how vulnerable I feel. Is this what MDD feels like? Everyone tells me I have it, and it’s been confirmed by my psych, my pcp, and my therapist, but I still can’t seem to fully see it. I don’t know how to separate what’s OCD from what might be another disorder. I’m sorry to anyone also going through such a hard time, my heart goes out to you 🤍
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- 21w
TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
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- 19w
At this point I think I’m just tired. Took me a massive amount of strength to even type this. I’ve never had it this bad with anxiety depression and OCD. Firstly, how do you guys handle the trauma that comes with OCD. I recently realized Ive traumatized by own mind. I think this contributes to depression. Also, the thoughts frequency have gotten so high. It just literally jams its self in my brain. Before, I had some sort of control (at least a grip) but this days it’s so hard to try to get a grip. The unwanted feelings too? Omg, reactions that I literally can’t stand plagues me. My mind turns almost everything sexual. It’s crazy 🙃 Then the anxietyyyyyy! Wheew. I’m like a walking anxiety attack, my heart is always beating fast and it’s so painful. Working is so hard because I can’t get a grip, I feel so broken and I don’t think anyone can relate to this. I don’t know what I can do to help. Then the pressure in my head (that causes headache sometimes), sometimes I genuinely think I have a tumor! I’m pregnant so that makes it sadder, makes me wonder what kind of mother this beautiful soul is coming out here to meet. I don’t want to be a sad mother, and I cry more when I realize my child can feel what I feel rn in my belly😔. Another thing, the moment I don’t wanna do something, doesn’t even have to be anything bad. That’s when it feels my mind wants to force me to do it. It’s a whole lot and I’m just holding on to Jesus to help me out. At least he’s here so that’s comforting.
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