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Absolutely! I have trauma from being shocked at work (I am an electrical apprentice) and it has activated the worst OCD I’ve had since I was a kid. I cannot accept the lights/outlets I’ve installed are safe) or that equipment I’m working on is de-energized. I check and check again. It’s making me work slower and perform worse. At home I sit and ponder if the work I’ve put in is exploding or causing fires while I’m not there. I am afraid it’s not worth pursuing the career anymore but I’m so close to being licensed and I have done so much school it would be such a waste.
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You’d be better off continuing the work and avoiding the checking (both physical and mental) that you’re doing. Let your work become your exposure therapy. The reason I say this is that experts say that the way to recover from OCD is to keep living a life according to your values. For you, that would be continuing what you started and have almost finished. Also, chances are that your OCD would latch onto something else if it weren’t this, so leaving will just make you feel defeated and frustrated.
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@Sunrise22 Thank you very much for the insightful advice. You are spot on about OCD latching on to some other aspect of my life. I can think of other obsessions I have that have nothing to do with work and would not be affected by me quitting. I wish I had the knowledge to help with your trauma. If the abuser lives in the same rural area as you that must be very difficult and anxiety inducing thinking you could go to the grocery store and run into them. Would it help if every time you left to go in public you could go over a plan in your head in case you do see this person? Planning exactly what you’ll say or how you’ll react might make it less traumatic? But maybe an expert would say that’s not the best advice and really you should work on not being re-traumatized by the idea of seeing them again. I really hope you can get help at home or through this app!
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@rewho Thank you for your kind words! Fortunately I live across the country from my ex, so no worries about running into him ??
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YES!!! You’re the first person I’ve seen comment about this. My theme is specifically regarding someone who abused me and fear of being in contact with them again. It makes exposure challenging because scripting involves basically re-traumatizing myself over and over. Because I’m in a rural area, there are limited trauma specialist and no OCD specialists that I’ve found, so unfortunately I’m working towards overcoming this on my own.
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i feel you. it's difficult when OCD and trauma intersect. hard to tell where one ends and the other begins. a big theme for me has been keeping myself from experiencing the abuse again. things like, "if i breathe a certain way they won't hurt me" or "i have to have the exact right facial expression and body language or else they're going to abuse me" I've gotten alot better about it though. I live in a pretty big city and it's STILL so difficult to find ERP therapy. ugh
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Yep, a lot of my themes are linked to traumas or developed after trauma. It's actually pretty debilitating.
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I used to get bullied and fight a lot as a kid and together with low self esteem, it has effected me a lot.
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Yes
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I feel like after years of living in survival mode from various back to back traumas, I don’t know how to turn off my brain. It’s always in some sort of overstimulated cycle of overthinking, rumination, self checking, and seeking reassurance. I know there will be more peace after treatment. But just hating like I’m stuck in always feeling like I’m waiting for the next shoe to drop when so many shit things have happened to me early in life. How am I suppose to be excited about what’s next?
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My OCD diagnosis is still very new, but now that I know what it is, it is clearly something I’ve had for as long as I can remember. Contamination/bugs and health have been a consistent theme since childhood, but religious/existential themes emerged during adolescence. Around that same time, there was also a good deal of trauma, and during middle school I started experiencing hallucinations. Tactile (like bugs crawling on me or biting me, an eyelash being stuck in my eye, but nothing was really there); visual (like moving shadows or things that would dart past in my periphery, and then I would just have intrusive thoughts of scary things around corners or under things); and auditory (an angry male voice that grumbles or yells indistinctly, or a high pitched noise like a microphone/speaker feedback but muffled and less sharp). Because of the religious denomination I grew up in, I initially assumed these were demons and tried to address it that way, but when I was 14 or 15, it occurred to me that those voices/sounds sounded like the way I felt, and the visual/tactile experiences happened during times of stress too — and so all of those experiences could just be seen as an expression of a fragmented part of myself. That acceptance didn’t make them go away — I still experience them now and I’m in my 30s — but it made those experiences less scary and more manageable. I also see now how these all pop up specifically when OCD obsessions are super triggered and when I’m super sleep deprived. Anyway! Since this diagnosis, and talking about the hallucinations at all, are new to me, I am wondering who else has had similar experiences. I don’t really know how much of the hallucination experience is OCD versus trauma, but it seems like this might all make sense under the “quasi-hallucination” label.
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