Idk if anyone will see this but I’ll keep you all in my prayers. For those with extreme ocd or pure o like me; living this way is absolute hell and torture. But as soon as you realize that ur initially the one that locked yourself in a cage and only u have the key that’s when you’ll be free. A good support system is always important however nobody can want to help you more than yourself. You must be willing to do exposure exercises and be patient and try eating healthy and look for a cognitive behavioral therapist and keep yourself occupied and test out various medications. I found what helps me is religion, delving into work and working out, being vegan helped balance my emotions a lot for some reason and I’m also on Zoloft. Camomile tea is good too. I have good days and I have bad days but what helps most is saying “I don’t care” even though it’s evident that you do you know who you are in ur heart. The mind is extremely powerful but will is even more powerful, don’t fall for the trap even though the thoughts seem so real. I even sometimes pretend I don’t have ocd that helps too. But most importantly tell yourself I don’t care; I don’t even care if I’m a bad person, I don’t care if I did it on purpose, I don’t care what compulsion u want me to do I’m not doing it. Once u realize that u control ur brain and not the other way around you can literally feel the monster dying. Do whatever it is ur afraid of with baby steps ; a CBT is best for this and don’t do it alone do it with someone you trust . I understand that this disease can be paralyzing and there are times where u can be reasonable and times where nonsense thoughts take over and u forget what’s real, you forget the goal. The goal is you need to help yourself and get better. Those around you are counting on you and waiting to get the real you back. Whenever you feel yourself slipping back and believing the lies DONT FORGET THE MISSION!! it’s not you it’s your ocd it wants to pull you back in. You have nothing to fear but fear itself and the only thing ur doing wrong is listening to the ridiculous thoughts and allowing yourself to get bullied. I’m always here to help, giving up is NOT AN OPTION. Never lose hope you will get better; once you lose hope ur done for. Also remember it’s NOT REAL. And YOU DONT MEAN IT. Lots of love for this community hope you all recover