#throwbackthursday let's get some happy memories rolling even in the midst of the stress. Tell us about the best gift you ever recieved. For Christmas last year my brother gave me my very own free little library to paint and set up. I love reading and had been getting most of my books for free at a coffee shop. I was shaking when I saw what it was. After we painted it I got permission to put it in the lobby of my school. I see it every day when I go to class and it cheers me up

I don’t know if I forgot my good memories or just didn’t have them to begin with. My parents are good people. They are really laid back and understanding. They help whenever I need it and always support me financially. I can only remember one good memory with my dad from when I was 5. Everything else is blurry besides the stressful memory’s . This made me wonder if I had a good childhood. They were pretty busy with there full time jobs growing up so I don’t remember seeing them after school most days. This could explain why my memory is so blurry. I can’t recall specifics but I can remember my overall state of mind. I remember being 5 and feeling happy and stable when my family lived in Florida. When we moved to Georgia I remember feeling more restless and frustrated. I was a very talkative child and I would try to talk to everyone but I never really had friends. I had undiagnosed ADHD so I was pretty annoying as a kid unlike my brother who was polite and smart and even a child model. As a child I would pick fights with him all the time. I think my mom favored him but I also think my dad favors me so ig that a win. I remember hitting my brother a lot because I knew my dad would kill him if he hit me back. My mom would call me a brat all the time to make my brother feel better. It feels like at the time she might’ve resented me for what I did to him. She didn’t really do anything fun with me one on one I think but I really can’t remember . She put me into a bunch of extra afterschool things that I’m sure costed a ton of money. I was never really good or talented at anything tho so I wasn’t really enjoying myself. This is already a lot of word so imma rap this up. I later find out that my brother and my mom would talk everyday when she came home from work before he went to sleep. He says she treated him like a therapist and he didn’t appreciate it. But I feel jealous because I remember trying to talk to her when she came home from work but she would lose her patience after o few sentences of me talking. Now that I’m 18 my brother doesn’t answer her calls and im going hiking with her tommorow. She changed when I got older and nows she’s desperate for my attention because she feels like a bad mom. I love my mom and looking forward to our hike tomorrow.

So I get happy meals if I’m not too hungry or if I’m curious what the new toys going to be ( they’re never good ) they’re not what they used to be …. You used to get actual mini game toys … but today I got 2 little key chain toys from pet simulator… looks like a duck and a bear ? Or a squirrel… I’m easy to please ..: what’s your favorite thing or toy whatever you’ve got as an adult from somewhere? No judgement here

I’ve seen wayyyy too many negative posts on here (I totally get it)…but can someone please share some positive experiences? Doesn’t have to be so grand, it could be just that you achieved a small goal with your ocd! I don’t want to continue feeling drowned by this debilitating disorder. I want to see what has helped some of you! So we can all encourage each other! 😊