Its so hard to stay present when Im arguing with my mind all day :( idk how to stop

That’s exactly it. It doesn’t necessarily go away per say, because it is something we have distilled in us, and we don’t really understand how we have became a sufferer of OCD, but we can manage to cope with it. And meditation, in my honest opinion; and I’ve tried medication, therapy, etc..., is seriously the only way I have been able to handle the problem. Mindfulness can take you on journey and it will strip you of your ego and all the stress that surrounds you, IMO. My OCD, or ROCD stems from my past core values as a person. I couldn’t deal with my partners past relationships and it truly bothered me, I was suffering from retrospective problems. Something within me would not allow me to let go of my partners past. It became constant, debilitating cycles of mental movies and images of what my partner would have done in the past before I was even involved in her life. I compared myself to her ex partners, asked ridiculous questions, and now I feel embarrassed that I did all those things. And again, I tell you, I’m never going to be OCD free, and I don’t believe anyone that has OCD will be OCD free, but they can learn to control it and accept it, have compassion for it; but most importantly when you gain the skills and knowledge of knowing how to handle it you become a greater person, in my instance anyhow, and life becomes a beautiful, once in a lifetime opportunity given, miraculously.

@JS?? You hit it on the head JS x

For me any sort of established reasoning you make with it, it feeds off it. The key is to meditate and see if you can sustain through out, the more you can allow, as easy as it sounds: for it to be there, which is a skill to learn in itself, the easier it becomes. It has taken me ages to develop meditative practise. But my god it’s worth it.

I still feel stuck in my head even when I’m trying to focus outside of my mind and into my reality. I still have that feeling

@ruminating_redhead @ruminating_redhead You will feel like this but trying not to engage with it and staying in the moment does help, as Js says above its a skill you learn. Your brain is very clever, you can teach it to not react but it does take practice. I am still trying yo do this 14 months later x