I've decided to put my story here in order to help the people feeling miserable and lost. I got ocd about 5 months ago, and it shocked me to my core. I was feeling helpless and scared, and the fight-or-flight i felt during these dark days was destructive. I started doing ERP not so long after I realized that IT was the only way out. After a lot of suffering, anger, sadness and avoidance, despair also, I decided that I would rather die from my fear and doubts than continue walking the path of compulsions and OCD. I am only 19 years old, and have never experienced something as painful or destructive as this condition i am in. I realized after a lot of thinking that I had to go ALL IN. ALL or NOTHING. SHORT TERM PAIN AND LONG TERM GAIN, OR VICE VERSA. Of course, I chose the first. I am currently feeling the most anxiety in my entire life and not doing compulsions. IT truly feels like heroin withdrawal when you start doing the recovery work. IT is like walking on the most unstable ledge there is, and it feels horrible. BUT IT IS ABSOLUTELY WORTH IT, BECAUSE THE ONLY WAY AROUND OCD AND ANXIETY IS STRAIGHT THROUGH IT, BASICALLY GETTING TO THE POINT WHERE YOU WOULD RISK YOUR LIFE IN ORDER TO RECOVER. THAT IS OCD TO ME. A signal from your brain that I've been processing """negative"""" emotions the wrong way, and been lacking acceptance. That is how I Got to understand my disorder. Here is a list of a few things I would've never accomplished if it weren't for OCD: 1. I would have NEVER started meditating and aiming to be mindful. 2. I would have NEVER become humble. 3. Never would I hit the gym and obtain the good physique I now have. 4. Psychology and the human brain would've never been interesting to me, if I haven't experienced excruciating mental pain myself. 5. Got to finally know myself, the person I've been neglecting my whole life. Therefore, I guarantee to you, that IT is NEVER TOO LATE to start doing recovery work (ERP, ACT and Mindfulness including physical fitness sports the gym...) No matter what, know that you are not alone and that IT will be the hardest thing you have ever done, but IT is DEFINITELY WORTH IT.

h1guayn

Date posted: 5y

No matter how long you have been fighting mental illness, be it years, months or days, it is never too late to take a step forwards.

TinaStar

Date posted: 5y

THIS. I needed to read this. ??

Gabriella_

Date posted: 5y

This reminds me a lot of me, but I’m scared and I don’t know how to recover. I’m very new to this app and I hope it helps, like it appears to have done here, with you❤️

Ionut

Date posted: 5y

God, I hope we all will be cured . Excelent! Keep working and may God help us all deal with our problems and help us create new stronger « us »

h1guayn

Date posted: 5y

Everyone was once new, as with anything highly important in life. I would recommend researching Claire Weekes and her audiobook recommended by Nick Cascone (a youtuber talking about anxiety in a different way) and definitely ALI GREYMOND.

starboiklem

Date posted: 5y

Wow im just like you, how are you now have you recovered? I also developed a severe symptom 10 months ago and i went all in like you no compulsions ever, it took 10 months but my ocd symptoms are finally dead

h1guayn

Date posted: 5y

I still do have symptoms, but it really depends on the day. As soon as I realise that I have a repetitive and intrusive thought, I record the worst case scenario and almost immediately start listening to it.

starboiklem

Date posted: 5y

@h1guayn I was there too it's slow like you get some decent days and then some bad days i was there as well but after some time i stopped being triggered by my symptoms and after that there was no downs ocd died,keep going and im sure you will reach this point too

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