- Username
- Lu12
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Think about using acceptance commitment therapy when the thoughts happen. Act often helps with the RP in ERP
i’m too scared to try the acceptance technique. i keep thinking “what if i do accept it and then i am gay”
I am trying, it helps me sometimes, but then the hocd came back hardwr
harder*
you just have to think that is it irrational. over and over. and then once you do it you realize that it’s NOT the end of the world whatsoever. i actually used to have the same exact thoughts about being gay, the thought of it was terrifying, petrifying to me. but once I was able to just say it to myself and accept it I soon realized that I wasn’t even gay, I was just too scared to even think about that possibly. and i’m still figuring it out tbh!! I might be bi? who knows? but it’s 2018, and there’s nothing wrong with that. trust me. find the people in your life that don’t care whether you are or not. and treat u no differently with or without it. you got one right here!:) Just let that weight off your shoulders, trust me, it’s so much nicer. Your OCD is just simply making it so much more complicated than it has to be, that is it’s job, after all ?
Yes!! Even if it was other times, there isnt anything wrong kkkk but this hocd just kills me!! I am gonna try your tips!! thank you
The common themes are worrying about harming others, harming yourself, worried about being gay, weird religious thoughts, scared you’re a pedophile....I’ve heard of people having disturbing thoughts about have sex with Jesus (which bothered them because they’re religious).... I had thoughts that omg what if I’m gay and I would be scared to see an attractive woman....one time I hid all the knives in my house...if you’re having these thoughts than tell yourself it’s my OCD. For me my OCD thoughts seem so real and they’re so magnified....when I was little one time I kept saying “my mom is a bitch” in my head and it bothered me so much I confessed to her....nowadays I just obsess about the past... I have no idea why my brain made the switch in themes. But I don’t know...these days I tell myself if I have a bad thought and it’s really bothering me and I feel like it’s the end of the world than it’s probably just my OCD. Unless I find out I’m dying, someone I love is dying, or it’s the end of the world for real then I know most of my troubles are just ocd. This doesn’t always work right away because I get easily lost in thought but eventually a light bulb goes off and I think yep it’s my OCD. I’ve had this illness most of my life so I speak from a lot of experience ?
And I’ve said this many times with people who have ocd, if you are having disturbing thoughts are you find them really disturbing and it bothers you than that’s a good sign. Because psychopaths “enjoy” they’re disturbing thoughts...because they have no conscience.
OCD is making me feel very depressed. I’m on the highest dose of fluoxetine. I was “okay” a week ago but now I just feel hopeless and irritated by everything. Can anyone share tips which make could make me feel better even just for a little while?? Thank you
Today my HOCD feel so real… I can’t reassure myself. It’s like a evidence that im gay but i feel so bad. My brain make some scenario with women and i believe that i like it. And when i want to imagine with boy i feel nothing. I can’t think about my boyfriend… When im thinking about him i don’t feel anything and my brain tell me that im living in a lie. Do you have some days like that? How can i stop thinking that ??
So my hocd started over 2 years ago (I’m 20 yrs old now), when I was having a conversation with one of my friends and the thought popped into the back of my head what if the reason I don’t have a crush on any guys at my high school is because I’m a lesbian. Since then my sexuality has been on my mind 24/7 I didn’t know this was ocd until about a year ago but i’m only seeking treatment now. The hocd ramped up when I felt super aroused watching a movie with topless women, something that had never happened when watching men. Thing is I genuinely think I’m gay now, I’ve had this for so long that at first the thoughts disgusted me and caused me anxiety but now they don’t anymore. I saw so many tiktok videos about “pipelines” of certain interests gay people have that triggered me and read the comphet masterdoc which made me cry when I read it because I related to so much of it. When I was a child I was never boy crazy, I never really crushed on boys in my class (to be fair there were only 7) however I do remember writing a love note to a boy in first grade and having an immense celebrity crush on a disney channel star. I remember to certain things I did as a child that lead me to think I am gay and they keep replaying over and over in my head. Thing is over the past year I’ve had crushes on 3 guys I’ve met through dating apps. The last one I actually hung out with and I had my first kiss/makeout session 2 months ago. After that my hocd calmed down I enjoyed kissing him it felt euphoric the whole drive home just replaying our dates in my head. But now I can’t get the thought out of my head what if I didn’t like it enough? I didn’t get butterflies when we kissed (i do when I think back about it though) and didnt feel super aroused like that time I watched that movie. I feel nothing when I look at pictures and videos of men but with women I started getting this warm feeling in my chest which stressed me out even more. Idk what I am anymore and it is driving me insane. Does anyone relate?
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