I literally feel like OCD is the worst mental illness someone could have. I thought OCD was something that only weird people had. Now I am starting to realize That's Not true. I am trying to figure out how to get better. I saw a therapist for the first time last Monday. Of course it was virtual. I don't know what to ask him.I also smoke and I feel that that just reinforces my obsession to do compulsions. I am not trying to seek reassurance. I realize I do a lot of checking. I just need someone to tell me that I will be okay Because This is hurting every relationship I've ever had with the people closest to me.I just want to get better. Is there anybody know What I should do? I am open to any suggestion. Please be kind though

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Hi Mike- I'm do sorry your hurting. OCD is cruel, debilitating at times but treatable! Please keep seeing your ocd therapist. It's like climbing a mountain we need to be our own advocates. Of I might suggest some books that have helped me and continue to do so. Freedom from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder By johnathon Grayson The Happiness Trap. By Russ? Anything by Jon hershfield The Imp of the mind. It takes time patience and self compassion. ❤

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Okay I always smoke cigarettes and I get down on myself because of that so I feel like I need to be more self-compassionate and realize it's cigarettes is not the problem.

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Indeed! Slow down. Give yourself a break. It sounds as of you have the willingness to get better.

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Yes I do. I can't stay like this. I need to get better. I want to get better I think is more important

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Generally speaking that's when we start our healing journey when we're at rock bottom! Read do the work. Are you comfortable with your ocd therapist?

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Yes because he is my age. Maybe a little bit older but still close to my age. I see him on Tuesday at 11 a.m. . Virtually of course.I was thinking about trying to see a OCD therapist on this application Before then. Do you know anything about that?

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

I would highly recommend taking advantage of the free 15 minute call on NOCD. They're knowledgeable. I spoke to a therapist reasonably priced. But I was seeing an ocd therapist already. Stephen Smith the CEO shares his story. I was seeing a therapist quickly I realized she did not know how to treat ocd. It's been a year and I've made great progress.

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Okay because I know the therapist I'm seeing In my city virtually is a specialist on OCD

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Ok. A 15 free call doesn't hurt. This pandemic is horrific at least we have virtual.

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Yeah I don't realize how much I obsess about it to be honest with you. This virus is the worst thing for someone who struggles with OCD

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

I understand. It's frightening for non ocd sufferers. It's uncertainty and No one likes that. Are you taking time for yourself? Fresh air? Meditating?

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Yes I just put in my carport a lot because fresh air and I don't like being in the house .Question if you always divert or contradict yourself is that a symptom of OCD?

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Not sure can you explain?

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Okay someone may ask me a question and I will say one thing and then the next thing I'll be like wait now that's not true This is it and then I'll contradict thatAlso

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Oh I see, well don't forget that ocd is called "the doubting disorder." I have to jump off but please be kind to yourself! Slow down. Text anytime mike!!! Things to get better. God bless

nocdmike

Date posted: 5y

Ok thanks

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