How can I know if I am saved? If God will save me? This is a reassurance and I just dont want to do it. I am tired from feeling this way, for fearing apocalypse/end of days

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And what should I do when I fall into sin? Sometimes I think when I ask forgiviness, I am not being honest with God, like I am a hyprocrite. I dont want to do sins anymore, I want to feel happy again, knowing that God loves me

@Newstage U don't have to do anything. In the Old Testament they had to bring animal sacrifices. That was kinda the "compulsion" (something mandatory). Now, you can say "forgive me Jesus" if u want but even if u don't do it, your sin is already forgiven anyway. If you feel like a hypocrite then don't say sorry... But we're all hypocrites. We all say a thing and do another. We're all sinners. Dont try not to make sins anymore because you can't... Ur human. Stop worrying about sins please... Do u know how strong Jesus is? Oh and He wouldn't have died for u if u were a saint. If u sin you have to say "it means I'm human". God is not a punisher... He will infinitely forgive u. He knows your future... He knows that u will sin. He will forgive u over and over again. He doesn't judge you for your private life... God understands hormones, boredom and every state of mind. What's important to him is your public life... How much you love your fellow man, if u help others and make them happy. This is what matters in life: to help those in need and tell them about the love of God. That's all he wants. He doesn't want us to try to live without sins bcs we can never do that and we only become frustrated.