gratefulsunshine
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Anonymous Anonymous
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Hello! I was suffering from ROCD and now it has evolved into HOCD. My experience with it included during a happy moment as dancing in the kitchen with my boyfriend of 4 years, having a thout of “what if I’m not in love anymore?” And that’s where it started. I got over it after a couple days, moved on, then a month later got the same thoughts and they sticked. I would constantly evaluate feelings when I would hug, kiss, or just even look at him. I experienced hours on google trying to research, and cried to my boyfriend almost everyday. He is so supportive and understood because I had struggled before with OCD, and I’m so lucky to have him. To help with these thoughts, I just had to remember the good times, and how much he makes me happy. I would just be like “if I love him great if I don’t feel it right now then that’s okay, I’m still gonna stay with him because he’s worth it” and that really helped. I also had to remember these thoughts came out of nowhere! I just struggled with it because I had never experienced that form of OCD. I had experienced HOCD and a couple other forms before while we were together a couple years back, but not ROCD. Just stay positive, hope you feel better soon. Hope it helped sharing my experience.
gratefulsunshinegratefulsuns...
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Yes thanks for telling me about your experience. Can I ask you how you told your boyfriend that you have OCD and how did he react?
Anonymous Anonymous
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@april8 Sorry it took me so long to reply! Well, he has always known from the beginning of the relationship that I have anxiety. I just told him that my childhood wasn’t all that great, and that caused major anxiety in certain areas of my life. I didn’t experience really any kind of OCD (that I knew of yet) that was super distressing until 2 years into our relationship. At that point we had just graduated high school, I should be happy right? But for some reason I knew something was off with me, and I was crying almost every day. He was there for me during those couple months where I would cry and be super anxious, and then I just labeled it as anxiety because I didn’t know about OCD much. I had heard of it, but I kind of shrug it off. 2 years later here we are. I was researching about what I was going through, and came across a page explaining ROCD and it’s symptoms. From there, I figured out 2 years ago I experienced the same thing (HOCD) and I had been struggling with it since then on and off. I told my boyfriend that I found the exact thing I was going through, and I can maybe explain it a bit better now to him, and so I did. He did understand a bit more, and was happy that I found a community that is supportive of what I was going through. I told him that just because I have these thoughts about my identity and our relationship doesn’t mean they are true, and that it is simply like junk mail. I told him that I couldn’t control it, and I was trying to get better. Every time I say “I wish I was normal” he says “Baby you are my normal.” He said he would be with me every step of the way, and still is. Telling him might be super scary at first, but it’s so nice to have a support system by my side now, and know that I’m not experiencing this alone. Hope this helped.
gratefulsunshinegratefulsuns...
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@swill321 Thank you this helped?❤️good that now you know what you are dealing with and your boyfriend is supportive, maybe I can get courage to tell mine as well.
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