Rainman
- Date posted
- 5y
RainmanRainman
- Date posted
- 5y
I just don’t feel like my wife realises how hard it is for me to say these worries out loud and I lose all strength when I realise she isn’t listening/understanding. Feel so alone. - how do you do this with your husband?
Melissa278Melissa278
- Date posted
- 5y
I’m sorry, people that don’t go through what we do just don’t understand and never will. My husband generally doesn’t want to hear about it so I do not talk about it much. I only talk about it if I really cannot deal alone just to get some reassurance it’s the OCD. Even then he does get annoyed with me because he’s tired of it. I take that though to mean the OCD is taking hold I need to step back and look from the outside. I can’t get mad at him, I know he just can’t fathom how my mind can make me so dillusional to the real truth. He does though try to redirect my attention. Last night he suggested instead of giving the OCD attention I should refocus my attention to my job and starting my new career. Talk to your wife and explain how you feel when she doesn’t take you seriously, this is apart of your life. Also, maybe find her some resources she can read to help her help you.
RainmanRainman
- Date posted
- 5y
Meant to say “every time”
Melissa278Melissa278
- Date posted
- 5y
I’m right there with you.
Margaret01Margaret01
- Date posted
- 5y
Honey don't give up! I've been there and I now how it feels. You have to get up and try again. I believe in you! <3
RainmanRainman
- Date posted
- 5y
:) thank you both:) - really needed that:) - So sorry to hear you’re there too Mellissa. It really sucks! I have felt like I am at the bottom of a dark well just trying to get a foot hold so many times! There is nothing more demoralising:((( - I read something yesterday that gave me something to focus on and that has helped a little. I will try to have a 20min session tonight after the kids go to bed where I just let myself worry about anything and everything out loud to my wife! The idea being my wife and I can laugh about my stupid brain. I tried this yesterday but ended up completely panicking and stressing at my wife before we even started:( - but I believe it is a good idea, and worth trying again! - I feel so aweful for my wife having to live with me like this:( - I just hope I can find the strength tonight! Thank you both again for your support, it gave me a boost to try again today! I wouldn’t wish this disease on my worst enemy:( I wish you all the best in your own struggles:)
Melissa278Melissa278
- Date posted
- 5y
That’s a good idea, my mom and husband just give me a look like what an idiot when I talk about my stuff ??♀️? also, I did try the Wim Hof Method a few times and when I did it consistently for a week I felt less anxiety. Not sure long term how it would play with OCD specifically though. I need to get back into it. I hear so many good things about long term practice for anxiety. I’m pretty sure that was one of Wim’s intentions, he’s an interesting man. Hope you’re doing better!
RainmanRainman
- Date posted
- 5y
Failed:( - couldn’t do it:( had a total meltdown:( feeling lower than ever today:(
RainmanRainman
- Date posted
- 5y
:) thank you. It’s reassuring to know it’s not just my wife not caring:( (that’s what it feels like!) but I have to try and see it from her point of view. Will do all I can to pick myself up and try again today:)
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