I feel like the guilt and shame will never go. All the memories of the the thoughts, I have moral scrupulosity mainly which makes me feel guilt over watching porn in the past. I also have responsibility OCD which makes me worry about indirect harm I may cause through my actions, and I've had pocd in the past which was severly traumatic. I feel the the weight of all these themes isnt going to go away ever. I always feel the shame and guilt of it all. How can I over come this so i can move forward in life?

You can move forward one step to defeating ocd right now. Ignore all these thoughts the ocd gives you. It’s very disturbing to not ignore, but you have to start ignoring these thoughts because they are stopping you from moving forward in life. It’s ok you watched porn, because it was you ocd that was telling you to, not you. You didn’t invite ocd, it came. OCD send us alll these negative thoughts, that ruin us. So we have to try to give the thoughts less importance. OCD is an enemy, that gives you negative thoughts. If your enemy tomorrow, comes up to you and says you will harm this person, this person will get harmed because of you, then of course you won’t believe it. Because that’s your enemy, and because you trust yourself that won’t happen. Just like that ocd is your enemy, don’t listen to it, or else it will never go away. Ignore all these thoughts, give them less importance, try to remove your focus from them, only then ocd will give up and go. About the shame and guilt, again, you didn’t invite the ocd here to give you these urges and thoughts, it came by itself, so forget that guilt and shame. Because if it isn’t your fault, then why the guilt and shame. Try to give the thoughts less importance, ignore them. OCD will give up, only if you try.

Oof that must've made you feel worse ^ There's no indication that OCD made you watch porn. I get it. Watching porn is normal and you haven't done anything wrong by choosing to watch porn. Which of course you know on some level. I have moral scrupulosity and the one of accidentally causing harm or having caused harm and I check my memories in case I did etc. And I had zoophilia OCD. Moral scrupulosity OCD gets us to take the worst things that we think others might feel about us and internalise them as our truth. It's part of keeping ourselves feeling safe- if we already hate and judge ourselves, it takes the power of stigmatising you away from other people. But people just don't think like that. Some do, but humanity is a spectrum. Try opening up to a trusted friend about stuff you feel guilty over, you'll get a lot more kindness and understanding than you expected. And it'll still make you feel like they don't understand. Because the truth is that shame and guilt is just latching onto anything it can find which has any stigma, so it picked porn, and the trauma of the POCD you had. The porn and having had POCD isn't a problem and your life isn't ruined or contaminated. Just take one step at a time- ruminating over memories a bit less, taking some risks with vulnerability etc. It'll be okay. Try reading a bit about OCD and over-responsibility, too. It helped me. And don't listen to the poster above too much, they're telling everybody to ignore their thoughts which obviously isn't smart or helpful. I'm pretty sure it's the same user from a Facebook group who has been constantly asked to stop making these "just ignore it" comments there too. They're right in the sense that we ultimately have to learn to tolerate the thoughts and give them less meaning, but straight up ignoring them isn't an effective treatment, ERP and ACT is.