Not to be negative, but today was a really, really rough day. I couldn’t fall asleep till 4 am because of obsessive thoughts last night, and woke up with bad things on my mind. Laid on the couch from 11-5, had a mental breakdown for which I probably would’ve been hospitalized if the coronavirus didn’t scare my parents. I feel like I’ve had so much stress from OCD that my brain just gave up on me today, and I feel like I can’t find my personality or sense of self. I truly feel like something inside me died today, and I’m worried I won’t ever be the same. Does anyone have any experience with this feeling, or have the slightest idea what I should do?

Everyday I feel extremely down and I don’t know how to snap out of it. Intrusive thoughts are always playing in my head and won’t stop. I’ve been feeling down for the longest time to the point where it doesn’t feel right to be happy or do anything positive for myself. It’s as if I want to be miserable and don’t want anything good to happen to me. I don’t deserve it and I don’t think I can truly overcome this. I get eaten up everyday and lil by lil, a piece of myself slips away to the point where I don’t recognize myself anymore or care for myself. I don’t want to feel like this anymore😔I feel so detached from reality.

I have this issue that I need help with and I would like to hear if anyone else has gone through something like this along with any tips. A few months back I had what was arguably my worst OCD episode in my whole life, it lasted a whole week, in this week I felt nothing but constant anxiety and obsession over this thought, it was like nothing in life mattered except this thought and that lead me to really become disconnected from what’s around me and become so occupied in my own head. After this week, I felt extremely numb and disconnected from myself and my identity which lead me to go down a spiral of disconnection and I had a lot of nostalgic sadness due to thinking “I miss the old days when things were so simple and I didn’t have severe ocd” and this caused me to become very sick of ocd thoughts to the point of suppressing them. Now it’s been quite some time and I have become much calmer but I still feel 2 main things from this extremely bad OCD episode that have stuck with me. 1) I feel extremely disconnected from my identity, my thoughts and emotions, I cannot name my emotions nor embrace them anymore and I can’t think straight (brain fog). 2) that sense of continuous background anxiety that I experienced in that week in my bad OCD episode has stuck with me and now I feel that anxiety all the time for no particular reason along with feeling dull, sad and disconnected. I feel like I have unresolved emotions and experiences from all this but at the same time I feel like I can’t point out anything specific that is causing me to feel this way. I have searched up symptoms for generalised anxiety disorder because of my continuous anxiety but I do not seem to match any of the symptoms, in fact I currently never feel anxious about anything except things related to my bad OCD episode. Please do not hesitate to leave any helpful comments if you have any :) and thank you in advance.

I’ve been dissociating because of OCD these past two days. It’s been very bad it’s almost like I just don’t feel like myself. Tonight’s it’s gotten really bad, I’m so scared of like losing control of myself or like blacking out and not having control over my actions. Does anyone know how to make me feel like myself again. My ocd has been so good, I’ve never been better I hadn’t been doing compulsions I was able to push away intrusive thoughts easily, however I got discharged from Camhs recently and now I’m realising I can’t go to them with this. Anyways I got home from holidays two days ago and since that really stressful day at the airport I’ve had nothing but rlly bad days full of dissociating, a lack of routine as I had no work and loneliness as my favourite people aren’t able to hang out. Tonight old obsessions I had when I was younger came back and I’m getting really scared and I just want to feel like myself again. I just feel loopy and anxious and not like myself at all. Anyone know how to stop this feeling?