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- 5y
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- 5y
I’m really sorry and I’ve been there. I’ve been at that point. I felt like that yesterday, maybe not as bad but I’ve been that low. It’s awful. It’s the worst feeling you can ever feel. That’s why the good means so much to me now. What ever thing no matter how small that makes you happy, whether it be a TV show, a food, family, or even a moment. That feeling of happiness no matter if its gone in a half a second. Cling to it. Remember it. That’s you. You are not your pain. There is so so much more to who you are than the pain. I have days I lay on my couch crying because of this horrific illness. Take care of yourself. It’s all in the little things that bring us joy my friend <3
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- 5y
Appreciate the support everyone. The severe ocd is a problem, but what I’m more worried about is the depersonalization/derealization type symptoms, I feel like a completely different person lately and I miss feeling like my old self. I’m extremely worried and concerned, has anyone felt this loss of identity?
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Panic and derealization come hand in hand. I would recommend finding out what makes the feeling better and what makes it worse. Sometimes it’s just a feeling that is jsut there all day, but some things make it worse. Trying to identify those things can really help. Definitely take it one day at a time. And if you can’t do that take it one minute at a time. This will pass
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- 5y
Yes. I’ve been anxious all day everyday for the past couple of days. I think with everything going on it’s making it harder for me personally. I feel my mind spiraling out of control and it sucks because for a while I was feeling fine and then it started very frequently. I think it will get better I just hope it’s soon rather than later.
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- 5y
I’m with you. OCD can really mess with your sense of self (identity). You might try value mapping, there are some worksheets on google, to reconnect with who you are and challenge the OCD. Try out some ACT journaling and conversation right now. Maybe record yourself repeating your main fear in a really silly voice - Mickey Mouse, the Grinch, etc. - and listen back until it sounds kind of obnoxious!
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- 5y
I’m on the same boat as you. I can’t sleep. I wake up all throughout the night anxious and I’m just in constant fear/ anxiety because of my ocd. It’s horrible but I know that this is just temporary and I think it will get better. I’m currently trying to figure out a way for me too. You’re not alone.
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- 19w
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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- 13w
I’m really depressed and lately life has been really really bad. Everyday, it’s like something horrible happens and my mind tries to make me forget it. My family life isn’t that great and everything is super tough for me. It’s like when I get better I go like a million steps back. I ended up doing something bad today:ended up becoming aggressive to myself and caused some ouchies) it hurt a lot and right now I’m really stressed and have been for a while. My mental well being has been extremely bad these days. I have obsessive compulsive disorder but for me it’s decently strong so it’s hard to contain, Complex-trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. It’s an awful mix. My life is a living hell everyday. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep lying to myself to Myself that I’m getting better when in reality I’m in so much pain, it’s like I’m barely doing anything at all. Please, help, I’ve been acting not like myself. I want to live, even though it’s extremely difficult too and I rather much not be here, but people are counting on me and I don’t want to fail them. How can I convince myself to stay a little longer when I am fully burnt out from trying to get better? I’m in so much pain. I don’t know how to even deal with it. I’m so lost, I might lose it more, and I’m scared for myself. I feel like I don’t even deserve help. I’m so mentally unwell I can’t even think correctly. I hate everything and just want to sleep forever and ever. I’m so numb to it all. I don’t feel anything anymore.
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- 7w
I’ve been struggling badly lately. It started with a flare-up of stomach issues that made me go down the rabbit hole. I convinced myself that there was something seriously physically wrong with me even though I’ve been to the doctors numerous times and nothing has ever been found. It made me panic daily for weeks on end. All I could focus on was my stomach and the pain. Now my focus has switched and I’m just as afraid. I can’t really put my finger on it but I just feel like there's something wrong with me. I don't know if it's physical or mental. I almost feel like I’ve broken my brain beyond repair from the constant fear, anxiety, and panic. I just feel trapped in my head all of the time and it freaks me out. The harder I try to escape it the worse it feels. I’ve started to become so aware of my every thought to the point that I can hardly sleep at night. Everything around me just feels so strange. I feel strange. Now I’m just constantly monitoring how I feel and if I’m back to normal. At the same time I’ve been having a lot of existential thoughts like “what’s my purpose,” “what’s the meaning of life,” “do I actually enjoy anything,” “am I happy or will I ever be happy?” I feel like I can’t enjoy anything because I’m always thinking about these things. I’m the most depressed I’ve ever been before. Every second of every day feels like pure torture. My brain tells me that I’ll never get better and that no one will be able to help me. I have no hope.
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