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- 5y
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I’m really sorry and I’ve been there. I’ve been at that point. I felt like that yesterday, maybe not as bad but I’ve been that low. It’s awful. It’s the worst feeling you can ever feel. That’s why the good means so much to me now. What ever thing no matter how small that makes you happy, whether it be a TV show, a food, family, or even a moment. That feeling of happiness no matter if its gone in a half a second. Cling to it. Remember it. That’s you. You are not your pain. There is so so much more to who you are than the pain. I have days I lay on my couch crying because of this horrific illness. Take care of yourself. It’s all in the little things that bring us joy my friend <3
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- 5y
Appreciate the support everyone. The severe ocd is a problem, but what I’m more worried about is the depersonalization/derealization type symptoms, I feel like a completely different person lately and I miss feeling like my old self. I’m extremely worried and concerned, has anyone felt this loss of identity?
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- 5y
Panic and derealization come hand in hand. I would recommend finding out what makes the feeling better and what makes it worse. Sometimes it’s just a feeling that is jsut there all day, but some things make it worse. Trying to identify those things can really help. Definitely take it one day at a time. And if you can’t do that take it one minute at a time. This will pass
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- 5y
Yes. I’ve been anxious all day everyday for the past couple of days. I think with everything going on it’s making it harder for me personally. I feel my mind spiraling out of control and it sucks because for a while I was feeling fine and then it started very frequently. I think it will get better I just hope it’s soon rather than later.
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- 5y
I’m with you. OCD can really mess with your sense of self (identity). You might try value mapping, there are some worksheets on google, to reconnect with who you are and challenge the OCD. Try out some ACT journaling and conversation right now. Maybe record yourself repeating your main fear in a really silly voice - Mickey Mouse, the Grinch, etc. - and listen back until it sounds kind of obnoxious!
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- 5y
I’m on the same boat as you. I can’t sleep. I wake up all throughout the night anxious and I’m just in constant fear/ anxiety because of my ocd. It’s horrible but I know that this is just temporary and I think it will get better. I’m currently trying to figure out a way for me too. You’re not alone.
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- 23w
I don’t have much of a support system outside of my bf, so I find myself here a lot. I think I just need to vent, so forgive me if I do this too often. It helps to have a community of people who truly understand. I haven’t felt this debilitated by mental illness in months. There has to be some explanation, maybe it’s hormonal, because I feel like I’ve completely lost myself. The panic hits in waves, sudden and overwhelming, like my head is submerged in lava, burning and suffocating. Then, for a brief moment, I feel almost normal and wonder what all the fear was about. But it never lasts. The chaos always comes back. I even considered going to the ER because I’m not sure I can trust myself anymore. Something has to be wrong, because this isn’t me. My life isn’t perfect, but it’s not unbearable either. Since I withdrew from school, I’ve been so much less stressed that even my cycle, which has been irregular for years, has somehow regulated itself. But even with that, I feel like a failure. I was one semester away from finishing, so close, but OCD hit me harder than it ever has. It felt like drowning, gasping for air, reaching for something solid, only to be dragged under again and again. Now, I feel like that again, but worse. I feel hollow, like something is wrong with me at my core. I don’t just feel sad; I feel broken. I break down into uncontrollable sobs every few hours, and I don’t even know why. I just know that whatever is happening, OCD is taking full advantage of how vulnerable I feel. Is this what MDD feels like? Everyone tells me I have it, and it’s been confirmed by my psych, my pcp, and my therapist, but I still can’t seem to fully see it. I don’t know how to separate what’s OCD from what might be another disorder. I’m sorry to anyone also going through such a hard time, my heart goes out to you 🤍
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- 20w
I can’t stop crying. My thoughts are going insane, they’re so fast I can’t keep up. I want to tell everyone around me what’s happening (my family doesn’t even know about my OCD). I can’t seem to resist compulsions today. I’m freaking out. I want to give up. I feel like I’m suffocating in whatever is going on. I feel like I need to go to a hospital. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t feel okay. I don’t understand this at all. It feels like I took some random drug. I’m really scared I’m sorry, I am so panicked. It’s embarrassing but I feel so desperate for help right now I feel crazy
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- 20w
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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