- Username
- iamcami
- Date posted
- 4y ago
My mind constantly tells me that I never really experienced that trauma just like it tells me I don’t actually have OCD, why????
Oh god, how I understand you!!! I also have a trauma that I never talk about and at sometimes it seems that my mind is trying to convince me that it never happened. Also, I can only think of it if I try very hard, it’s like the memory is burried and I have to dig to get to it
I understand you!! Theres definitely a connection because OCD is caused by anxiety but also due to the sense of LOSS OF CONTROL; which is what happens when a child is molested. I was sexually abused too by my cousin and Ive had OCD since a child but my OCD NEVER VALIDATES the fact that I do have OCD and it took a lot of therapy for me to validate my own sexual abuse.
There can be a lot of overlap in symptoms (depression, rumination, anxiety, fear, guilt, doubt etc) and my therapist believes my OCD was triggered by trauma. It certainly has gotten worse in the wake of later traumas. Maybe if I'd been able to talk about it at the time, I wouldn't have gotten OCD. But I couldn't, and later wouldn't, that's just the way it is. It doesn't help me much to think about what might have been. But it's important to go over it in therapy.
I don't think your OCD or PTSD could have been prevented; whether you told anybody or not. A child's brain is NOT DEVELOPED enough to consent or understand sexual acts; this causes severe TRAUMA to the child often manifested in different ways, one of which is OCD. ESPECIALLY if it was someone close to you and no one was there to help YOU, the child in need. This is not your fault AT ALL. You were just a kid. However, validating your experience WILL help you heal your inner child.
Hello! It’s my first time using this app. About to get really personal. I’ve struggled with OCD for a long as I can remember. Picking at the skin around my nails, having “scary thoughts.” After I moved out, my OCD seemed easier to manage for a while. However, a year and a half ago I was rapped. Ever since that night, the OCD has come back and is so much worse. Being raised Catholic, my intrusive thoughts center around the fact that I am no longer “pure”. I know that what happened to me is not my fault, but my OCD loves convincing me otherwise. Sometimes it’s almost like PTSD where I have flashbacks to that night. Any suggestions?
MY OCD STORY I’d like to tell you guys my ocd story because why it happened is still a mystery to me. I have never dealt with ocd for my life. I only dealt with some thoughts recently that I would worry about and obsess about but...most of my ocd thoughts would be something that my ex boyfriend would say. For example. My ex boyfriend would say things like, “I’d fuck her” about a random girl. Now I get those thoughts and deal with sexual ocd trying to repress those thoughts. Another thing is my ex used to say weird things about girls younger than him. Way younger, and talk about their body and how they’ve changed so much since the last time they’ve he’s seen them. This caused me to struggle with pocd. Anybody have any thoughts about this? I am not trying to blame him but just wonder if someone else had this experience or can explain what more this experience means for me. My therapist calls these traumatic memories, which I then obsess about.
Hey everyone, I am just wondering if anyone else on here struggles with feeling like they should “confess” their intrusive thoughts? Obviously this is a form of reassurance and a compulsion but it’s so damn hard. I also have PTSD from being groomed and the trauma from telling people what happened to me. I find that my OCD latches into this and tells me that I have to “confess” my intrusive thoughts because it’s the same as not telling anyone about being groomed. Just wondering if anyone else finds that OCD and PTSD are constantly triggering each other? Big love to everyone fighting ♥️
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