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Welcome ✨ Feel free to share and we'll help whenever we can. Good luck ✌?
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Welcome ? it's nice to meet you Lee. I hope you find what you are looking for here
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I suffer from HOCD, harm OCD, and drink alcohol heavily to self medicate and give the thoughts less power over me ... how do u stop
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Hiya mate, if you're drinking daily and heavy first thing you must importantly do is safely either wean yourself off of the alcohol by slowly reducing or get the recommended medication off of your doctor to detox yourself properly (don't just suddenly stop). Then once sober, I find AA helps (surprising how many alcoholics/addicts understand and have OCD) Build a safe network of people who will support you, stay away from negative people even if you have to sack of some associates. Be around good people who understand. I will be hard but once sober you can really knuckle down to deal with your underlying issues. You will get there.
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Sorry my spelling mistakes... My mind runs faster than my typing so I miss words now and again- peace.
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Yeah. I used to party a lot and drink once or twice a week and since 1-2 years I drink literally 10 percent of what I was drinking last 10 years and my OCD is the worst ever
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Nice one for the msg 'Jamarceline'... How's things with yourself nowadays?
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@Lee1978 Pretty bad. I dont wanna drink all the time like before so I dont drink but this OCD is killing my soul my family thinks OCD is made up by modern people and I cant afford a therapist, I actually believe that even if I could afford a therapist he would be really bad with OCD cause the last one from insurance was lousy . When I drink 1- 2 beers i feel awesome my thoughts have normal speed but I can go tipsy all the time so I suffer:( . But sometimes I have better days or weeks . I think when I was drinking every weekend it was like a reset button to my brain so my OCD wasnt that bad back then .
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@Jamarceline I cant go tipsy *
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@Jamarceline Yea I hear you mate... I started drinking, raving, various mind altering substances and all that crap a good 18 years ago... Thought it was the answer, confidence to deal with that evil demon/demons in my head (biggest fears- my death or me causing people death by not completing a ritual properly- magic thinking I know), has ruled my life, jobs, relationships, everything and there's me drinking myself to death to escape my thoughts of death when in actual fact drinks 1 of the biggest killers (plus I knew it) absolutely stupid. We will get better... Slowly but surely and just try our best not to beat our selves up so much and give our selves a pat on the back now and again cos it ain't our fault how we turned out and our journey has not finished yet.
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@Lee1978 I hope we will get better ?. How old are you? And what ocd themes do you have ?
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@Jamarceline I'm 42 mate. My themes (I take it you mean what type of OCD I have) Well where do I start... The main thing is random horrific thoughts happening to anyone- wether close to me or a total stranger (and this is none stop all through the day even if I'm busy) I have to neutralise these dark thoughts with me thinking of something nice happening to them, winning the lottery of happyly getting married or whatever. BUT- I have to overcome the strength of these dark thoughts with my mad pointless ritual magic thinking a numerous amount of times to a safe number 3, 8, 11, 15, 21 etc and if I don't get it right- that 1 thought can wind up my whole day. And that's just 1 example... What about you?
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@Lee1978 What are your dark thoughts ? I have spiral of thoughts something like ' what ifs ' like dramatic thinking like something bad is going to happen. if you know what I mean ? . I have schizofrenia OCD - intrusive thoughts tells me I'm developing serious mental illness called schizofrenia, I had ROCD - its questioning your relationship all the time , hierarchy and symmetry all the time . Sometimes its better sometimes is terrible . I'm 26 yo
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Thanks leelondon, i have the medicine from my doctor just cant seem to start it, im still drinking tho. How long did u drink for ?
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I was dependent for just under 20 years, it's still early days in my attempt to stop this time round, failed staying on wagon a numerous amount of times, just gotta keep trying. So one told me once... "My mind is like a dangerous neighborhood- you don't wanna go in there on your own!!!" So instead of taking Alcohol in there with me I'm trying to get the right tools and information like off of here to take in there with me instead. I hope I made sense there lol.
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Ive been dependent for 9 years i really want to stop im 25 y.o , yes it made sense. What kind of OCD do u have
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Me- Uninvited dark intrusive thoughts unnecessarily invade my about bad things happening to people including myself, counting, symmetry, touching objects- causing the obvious ritual madness from a 3 second thing to waisting 3 hours getting something right, just for another bloody thought to pop in my mind after just a 3 min breather from the chaos... Horrid as I'm sure you know. Bro- even tho it must seem impossible and you can't see out of your bubble- just take it from an older my friend(I'm only 42 but if I could go back to when I was mid twenties, boy I would listen to myself what I know now) your still in your prime, still got half a decade to explore and find yourself before the real 'no fuckin about' adult shit kicks in- even then it's still not to late- I still haven't grown up- I like to call it-"I'm young at heart". Anyway my point is- you've got the whole world ahead of you, we all have, plus I've got ya age- so look forward to to conquering your demons cos no matter how long it takes you will get there and learn for it (this shit we got... I like to think of it as one day will become a blessing in disguise).
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Leelondon thank you for the advice and inspiration it means a lot. U make me want to stop drinking
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Hi this my first time ever hearing about this app n i downloaded it because lately my ocd been really bad and I feel I can’t have control over it it scares me because I sometimes hurt people around me when I don’t mean to for example my bf everytime something goes well my head just starts spinning in circles with bad thoughts n wanting to ruin stuff with him lowkey I messed up big times bc I let this time my thoughts win me over n took everything off on him without thinking n realizing how bad I had affected him it kills me because everytime I think im jus a weak person bc I always let everything get to me I’m jus so scared because now my head jus tells me your not good enough your gonna lose him this literally jus happens when something positive comes in my head or something good happens always jus wanna ruin it I hate it because I always believe my thoughts instead of him not because I don’t want to but because also of my past n trauma jus fucks it even more from the deep of my heart i believe him but my head reacts differently n lets it out n now am in the situation of knowing I can lose him any minute now even tho am putting my faith in god n trying my hardest to think positive n be better everyday I’m really trying but w ocd it’s so hard n jus get scared n let my thoughts get to me😞 idk what to do anymore
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Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
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I’m new to treatment and only realized I have OCD a few months ago. I went through a tough and abusive marriage and ended up getting divorced. I had my first panic attack several years ago and ended up needing to go on Lexapro. This helped me significantly and allowed me to leave my partner. Several years later and I decided to stop Lexapro because I thought I was good to go. I’m in a very healthy relationship, have a great job, friends/family, go to the gym and have a wonderful life. It’s been about a year off the meds and I’ve had some panic, but I’ve been able to manage it. For some reason, the last three weeks has been really difficult for me. I have different spirals and different thought processes: what if I’m schizophrenic? What if I have a deeper mental disorder? What if I hurt someone? What if I need to leave my partner? What if I end up becoming so depressed that I end up hurting myself? My brain just goes from one what if to the next and once I conquer one, the next one pops up with even more intensity. I started taking NAC and inositol and I’m taking saffron during the day because I really don’t wanna go on back on medication but sometimes my thoughts scare me and I’m convinced that I’m not gonna get better and I know that’s just the OCD loop, but I’m wondering if this resonates with anyone else!
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