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- LeeLondon
- Date posted
- 4y ago
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Welcome ? it's nice to meet you Lee. I hope you find what you are looking for here
I suffer from HOCD, harm OCD, and drink alcohol heavily to self medicate and give the thoughts less power over me ... how do u stop
Hiya mate, if you're drinking daily and heavy first thing you must importantly do is safely either wean yourself off of the alcohol by slowly reducing or get the recommended medication off of your doctor to detox yourself properly (don't just suddenly stop). Then once sober, I find AA helps (surprising how many alcoholics/addicts understand and have OCD) Build a safe network of people who will support you, stay away from negative people even if you have to sack of some associates. Be around good people who understand. I will be hard but once sober you can really knuckle down to deal with your underlying issues. You will get there.
Sorry my spelling mistakes... My mind runs faster than my typing so I miss words now and again- peace.
Yeah. I used to party a lot and drink once or twice a week and since 1-2 years I drink literally 10 percent of what I was drinking last 10 years and my OCD is the worst ever
Nice one for the msg 'Jamarceline'... How's things with yourself nowadays?
@Lee1978 Pretty bad. I dont wanna drink all the time like before so I dont drink but this OCD is killing my soul my family thinks OCD is made up by modern people and I cant afford a therapist, I actually believe that even if I could afford a therapist he would be really bad with OCD cause the last one from insurance was lousy . When I drink 1- 2 beers i feel awesome my thoughts have normal speed but I can go tipsy all the time so I suffer:( . But sometimes I have better days or weeks . I think when I was drinking every weekend it was like a reset button to my brain so my OCD wasnt that bad back then .
@Jamarceline I cant go tipsy *
@Jamarceline Yea I hear you mate... I started drinking, raving, various mind altering substances and all that crap a good 18 years ago... Thought it was the answer, confidence to deal with that evil demon/demons in my head (biggest fears- my death or me causing people death by not completing a ritual properly- magic thinking I know), has ruled my life, jobs, relationships, everything and there's me drinking myself to death to escape my thoughts of death when in actual fact drinks 1 of the biggest killers (plus I knew it) absolutely stupid. We will get better... Slowly but surely and just try our best not to beat our selves up so much and give our selves a pat on the back now and again cos it ain't our fault how we turned out and our journey has not finished yet.
@Lee1978 I hope we will get better ?. How old are you? And what ocd themes do you have ?
@Jamarceline I'm 42 mate. My themes (I take it you mean what type of OCD I have) Well where do I start... The main thing is random horrific thoughts happening to anyone- wether close to me or a total stranger (and this is none stop all through the day even if I'm busy) I have to neutralise these dark thoughts with me thinking of something nice happening to them, winning the lottery of happyly getting married or whatever. BUT- I have to overcome the strength of these dark thoughts with my mad pointless ritual magic thinking a numerous amount of times to a safe number 3, 8, 11, 15, 21 etc and if I don't get it right- that 1 thought can wind up my whole day. And that's just 1 example... What about you?
@Lee1978 What are your dark thoughts ? I have spiral of thoughts something like ' what ifs ' like dramatic thinking like something bad is going to happen. if you know what I mean ? . I have schizofrenia OCD - intrusive thoughts tells me I'm developing serious mental illness called schizofrenia, I had ROCD - its questioning your relationship all the time , hierarchy and symmetry all the time . Sometimes its better sometimes is terrible . I'm 26 yo
Thanks leelondon, i have the medicine from my doctor just cant seem to start it, im still drinking tho. How long did u drink for ?
I was dependent for just under 20 years, it's still early days in my attempt to stop this time round, failed staying on wagon a numerous amount of times, just gotta keep trying. So one told me once... "My mind is like a dangerous neighborhood- you don't wanna go in there on your own!!!" So instead of taking Alcohol in there with me I'm trying to get the right tools and information like off of here to take in there with me instead. I hope I made sense there lol.
Ive been dependent for 9 years i really want to stop im 25 y.o , yes it made sense. What kind of OCD do u have
Me- Uninvited dark intrusive thoughts unnecessarily invade my about bad things happening to people including myself, counting, symmetry, touching objects- causing the obvious ritual madness from a 3 second thing to waisting 3 hours getting something right, just for another bloody thought to pop in my mind after just a 3 min breather from the chaos... Horrid as I'm sure you know. Bro- even tho it must seem impossible and you can't see out of your bubble- just take it from an older my friend(I'm only 42 but if I could go back to when I was mid twenties, boy I would listen to myself what I know now) your still in your prime, still got half a decade to explore and find yourself before the real 'no fuckin about' adult shit kicks in- even then it's still not to late- I still haven't grown up- I like to call it-"I'm young at heart". Anyway my point is- you've got the whole world ahead of you, we all have, plus I've got ya age- so look forward to to conquering your demons cos no matter how long it takes you will get there and learn for it (this shit we got... I like to think of it as one day will become a blessing in disguise).
Leelondon thank you for the advice and inspiration it means a lot. U make me want to stop drinking
Hi everyone I’ve struggled with OCD for 22 years, and I’m hoping to start doing some really tough ERP with the app. My revolves around superstitious OCD and thoughts popping in basically if I think something whilst touching an object or doing something i feel it makes it more likely to happen, I have depression due to the OCD. But I hope I can start to recover because I’ve had enough of this illness.
I'm new here... Honestly, I didn't know much about my OCD even though I've been living with it most of my life. I didn't know how complex it could be... I thought what I was experiencing was unique to me and no one else. Most people describe OCD different to mine but when I saw this ad.... I was like.... This is me. I struggle to accept this disorder and I just wish I could be normal... I'm afraid to touch everything and wash my hand constantly. I never tell anyone what goes on it my head because it's embarrassing and they won't understand. I don't know if this app will work but I at least have some relief knowing that I'm not the only one.
hello, I’m a young adult with extreme ocd that I’ve been struggling with since I was little it’s to the point where things like walking eating writing or driving has become almost an impossible task. how do some of you try to differ your ocd thoughts? even when I try to ignore them I’ll have panic attacks until I go back and do whatever my brain is telling me. I feel helpless my doctor has told me I have the worst case of ocd she’s ever seen and she “doesn’t know what to do with me” I’m just starting to feel hopeless
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