AdversWarrior
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CJ508CJ508
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Real Event OCD is so sucky. But it gets better, I had it and I'm on the other side. I was so scared I hurt people without intending to. I felt so guilty. And it was absolutely blowing the situation out of proportion. Part of coping/therapy for me was writing out a script of the situation in the terrifying, awful way it was portrayed in my mind. (This is so hard, really try to be detailed, OCD is sticky.) I would then do an exposure by reading it over and over to myself until I got super anxious, then your mind naturally gives up after a while. If you are in a place where you feel like you can't do an exposure, just remember we are all human, and humans make mistakes. You are loved and you belong!
AdversWarriorAdversWarrior
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Thank you so much, I struggled a Lot with this theme several years ago, but whenever I feel it trying to creep back in I get so scared. Like scared that it will get bad again
CJ508CJ508
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I totally understand, I have the same fear...I know how crippling it is. I just try to remind myself what worked for me before, exposures, hobbies, talking with people I trust, etc. OCD is tricky because triggers can so easily put you back in that state of mind. It's not easy, I feel for you. Personally it's the toughest kind of OCD I have ever had because it's based on a real event that happened, you know? It's quite deceptive. The best advice I can give is to equip yourself with the tools to combat it in case it creeps back in (exposures, therapy, etc.) and fight it as quick as possible with those tools!
AdversWarriorAdversWarrior
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How Did you bring it up to your therapist??
CJ508CJ508
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It was scary, it requires a lot of trust. I just walked through the situation step by step and what details I was ruminating over to make me feel extreme guilt, which wasn't warranted for what happened. It's tough, if that's too uncomfortable I recommend talking with a trusted friend. I am also here for you, let me know if you want to talk privately
AdversWarriorAdversWarrior
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I'm just so scared to talk about it with my therapist since I have only been seeing them for about a little over a month, Im afraid they will think I'm a horrible disgusting person and not want to continue treating me anymore I have spoken about it with a very trusted person and they didn't judge me for it, but it is someone very close to me so sometimes I fear that maybe they were hidding their disgust and that if I tell my therapist about it they wont Treat me the same
CJ508CJ508
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You are not though. And if you feel the details are too personal and you don't trust your therapist enough, there are ways to treat it like doing exposures and such that don't require a therapist necessarily. It takes a while to develop a relationship with a therapist, I totally understand how that's difficult
AdversWarriorAdversWarrior
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Thank you so much for helping me out, I'm going to try doing some sort of exposure, maybe try to tread the waters with my therapist next time I see them. Thanks again :)
BelieveInYourselfBelieveInYou...
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CJ508CJ508
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No problem, stay strong! This is a tough battle, but you will get through it!
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