Hi All, I hope this doesn’t sound too pathetic what I’m about to say. So my current psychiatrist is a brilliant doctor and he’s been my provider for 6 months now. Throughout those 6 months, we’ve been through a lot together emotionally and medically. He was basically my rock or crutch for lack of a better word. I was heavily leaning on him for mental and emotional support. Sometimes we were on the phone having long conversations several times a week and out of the kindness of his heart he did not bill me for any of that extra time. The communication between us have simmered down since earlier this year, but yesterday during our session he concluded by saying point blank that I’m not to reach out to him unless it’s an immediate life-threatening emergency. I knew this was eventually going to happen cause he’s my doctor, not my dad (although I think subconsciously I have created him into a sort of father figure). But hearing him put it so bluntly like that hit like a bag of bricks and I’ve been super depressed since last night. I’ve been acting out sexually and I had been doing good the last few days with that. I feel like I have lost a life line that I was totally dependent on. And now that we increased my Prozac again, I’m worried that the Prozac will increase my anxiety and technically that’s not a life threatening emergency so I can’t reach out to him, even if the anxiety is unbearable, which it was last time we tried increasing my Prozac. So I’m not sure how to effectively cope with this. My mood has been just awful since yesterday. I’m just tired of feeling depressed and I wish I wasn’t so emotionally dependent on other people to make me feel happy and secure with myself. I’m not asking for any type of reassurance, disproval of my anxiety or for someone to tell me what to do. I just want some support and if anybody maybe has some suggestions for coping skills and strategies for this particular situation I’d greatly appreciate it. I’ve already tried the following: •Going on a walk. •Listening to Music •Listening to lectures from some online courses I signed up for. •Attending a 12-step meeting via the phone I still might try either reading a book or meditating. But I feel that these distractions won’t make the emotional pain I feel go away. What I need is to figure out how to deal with this feeling of rejection from my psychiatrist that I’m feeling. I know he didn’t mean it come across that way. I know my thinking is incredibly distorted. But I’m just not sure how to cope with these emotions and feelings. Thank you and sorry this post is so long.

g432

Date posted: 5y

I think your psychiatrist said that to you because he knew you were depending on him increasingly a lot and didnt want u to get to the point to where u cant do anything without him always there all the time, which is totally very understandable for bc he knows ppl like us have problems like that, and he cared for you so much that he thought it was best that u learn how to feel purposefull without him always there. He knew you are strong and beautiful without him at the very second. He will ALWAYS be there to help you. He did this because he cares for you.

ma345

Date posted: 5y

Hi thank you very much for that. I’ve had a lot of people, including family members, tell me that I need to start developing some self-reliance instead of being so co-dependent. So that makes sense. Thank you very much.

lulu23

Date posted: 5y

@ma345 This is a good thing to work on. I’m comfortable being alone for the most part. A few months ago I couldn’t bear it. I wanted to be talking or texting someone literally all day because my feelings for the best of me. It turns into a compulsion because it provides comfort when we are facing any bad feeling. And while it’s completely ok to need someone I think it’s great for our health to face our feelings and learn that we are ok. It’s hard work but we can work on becoming happily independent.

g432

Date posted: 5y

@ma345 Of course Im really glad I could help you with this. Sometimes with ocd you feel so broken that we turn to other things or people for complete reliance. Ive done that too and its aan expected thing for u too feel like this if ocd has caused an emptiness in you, like I have experienced. It Will Get Better. You just have to take the first step. I believe in you.

sillybilly

Date posted: 5y

My therapist told me to excersise when I told her I was feeling depressed. Maybe that’s something you could try? Fighting!

ma345

Date posted: 5y

Yeah I had been doing good the last week with exercising but I haven’t worked out the last three days. So maybe tomorrow I can try starting up again. It seems like every time I try to exercise I can never follow through and be consistent with it.

sillybilly

Date posted: 5y

@ma345 I understand. I excercised 3 days in a row and it really helped with my depression. On the 4th day I didn’t do it and I was depressed for the rest of that night and the whole morning the next day. I realized that excersising is the source of my happiness at the moment. I hope it can be yours too.

ma345

Date posted: 5y

@sillybilly Yeah I think I’ll go for a run or do my body exercise routine tomorrow. Thanks!

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