I had a good day today but as soon as I was alone in bed I kept going over and over my main moral obsession at the moment and got to the point where I was ready to admit it was all true. Does this mean it is? Also if you obsess over one main intrusive thought for a long time, does that still make it OCD? Then I spiralled into a hole of “my family will disown me, I have to break up with my boyfriend, I’ll have nothing” Writing this I SHOULD KNOW it’s OCD but part of me can’t stop thinking it’s all true and I’m a sick person... (Btw my ocd thought follows a sexual dream I had about my half brother a while back - which disgusted me - and now I have convinced myself he is attracted to me and I desire him even though I’m 99% sure this isn’t real... looking back we have always been close and I’ve always looked up to him so WHAT IF IT’S TRUE?!)

I think you need to make sure your therapist has experience with ocd as people just don’t get it and can inadvertently say the wrong thing so easily. X

Maybe your therapist isn’t experienced with dealing with people like us living with OCD, I’m not sure why she would ask you that because clearly it isn’t true. Maybe try and find one who is trained on dealing with OCD. Hugs to you ? stay strong

Thank you - I am starting intensive CBT at an actual Anxiety Clinic through the NHS, so hopefully this will be an improvement. Taking each hour and day as it comes to get through this torment in my head and feeling of dread, but I believe I’ve beat it down before and I’ll do it again. Good luck guys xx

It’s just a thought. Stop paying it attention. Say ‘so maybe I might fancy him’ and then let it be. Hard but if you let it just sit without trying to work it out e.g. what if I do, omg last Thursday I really liked his hair so maybe it’s true etc. It will diminish x

Btw out of the blue I suddenly worried I was attracted to my female friend n then worried that meant I was a lesbian n that my happy marriage to a man was a lie. It’s amazing how 1 little thought can overwhelm your whole sense of being if you engage with it x

Yeah OCD can make you believe a “thought” is actually true, and make you obsess over it continually, OCD is absolutely horrible, I have OCD too. Have you seen a therapist as yet, maybe that would help ?❤️

Yeah I’m seeing a therapist and starting some more intensive CBT but opening up has made me doubt and think about it more. My therapist is generally good but I don’t know how helpful she is with OCD - she was like “well are you attracted to him? Maybe you are” and that just made me feel awful because I knew it wasn’t true but somehow felt like I should admit it to her anyway? Honestly this thought is undermining all my decisions and relationships at the moment in a way I’ve never had before.... can anyone relate? Thank you for your support xx