I hate FALSE FEELINGS!!!

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I don't even know my thing is that in the moment it genuinely feels like I enjoy so i try to ignore it for as long as possible and then end up doing a compulsion and finding out I don't like it or don't want to. But in the moment it feels so convincing it leads me to a compulsion. Don't even know if false feelings truly exist or im just looking for an excuse for my fear to be false when it is really well and maybe deep down I know it but don't want to admit it. At my wit's end at this point.

@Lina Really true not really well*

Feelings change. That's expected

@NOCD Advocate - Katie So you're saying that my feelings are true and my fear is true?

@Lina Feelings being true doesn't mean the fear is true.

@NOCD Advocate - Katie You had a feeling. ALL feelings are allowed. There are no unacceptable feelings

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I guess I'm confused by what that means. Feelings of liking it doesn't mean I like it?

@Lina What is wrong with liking something?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I'm saying liking it, whatever "it" is, is not a bad thing like your fear says it is

@NOCD Advocate - Katie You liked it? Cool, that's ok. You didn't like it? Also fine. Your feelings flip-flop? Totally normal

I don't think it's a matter of making it up. You believed what you read. That's fine. It's just unfortunate that you read something that added to confusion instead of clarifying anything

@NOCD Advocate - Katie People who have experienced ocd firsthand and from what I've seen on Instagram they describe false feelings and even say they happen. Even ocd recovery talks about it on his account.

I’m just saying your interpretation of what ever is going on is playing into OCD territory. A lot of ppl use the term “false feelings” kind of like “pure o” as a way to identify and bond through symptoms but both terms are kinda misnomers, and wouldn’t be wise to use when you’re dealing with ocd. Anything you try to declare with a definitive statement, OCD will spin it and find evidence for the contrary. “Well that was a ‘false feeling’ but what if this one was ‘real’?” And so on. Or you try to celebrate not having any “false feelings” only for you to spike and spiral back down the rabbit hole Bc you’re telling your brain to always be on alert for “false feelings” vs “real feelings”. You beat ocd by not going into this battle of analysis for certainty and simply accept you had a feeling. This alerts the brain to dial back the intensity and importance of these “feelings”.

@Lina I know they do. I think the need to label feelings or thoughts as "false" or "real" is a symptom of the disorder, not an accurate reflection of reality

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Oh ok, thank you guys for clearing that up.

@Lina The truth of the matter is if you knew 100% the feelings were “false”, why do you keep endlessly ruminating and analyzing them? You wouldn’t have HOCD/POCD or whatever theme generates these “feelings” you’d just ignore them, but for whatever reason you’ve decided to give them importance and told you’re brain they’re a threat to your identity. Bottom line, calling the feelings “false” is an inherent rejection of accepting uncertainty Bc you’re trying to be “certain” they’re false so you can protect your identity and tell yourself “I’m definitely straight” or “not a pedo”. This is nothing more than a compulsive mental ritual.

This article should be helpful to you or anyone else who reads this thread and struggles with how to respond to the thoughts: https://www.ocdbaltimore.com/how-to-respond-to-unwanted-thoughts/