I have moral/responsibility OCD and I constantly feel the need to report things online where I feel someone may be going against the rules/regulations. Or something may be inappropriate/illegal (even if I'm not sure) I avoid most websites, mainly porn sites where I feel the likelyhood of coming across something like that is higher and gives me so much anxiety and fear. Anyway, because I dont feel comfortable going on an actual pornsite, I've been going on a erotic literature site (literotica) for ERP. Literotica states in all its stories the characters depicted are 18+. I was scrolling past the stories today and came across a title where there was an alice in wonderland themed story. I'm assuming the characters would be depicted 18+ otherwise it wouldnt have been allowed but the title creeped me out. I didnt click the story so I have no idea what was said in it. My brain is saying you should have reported it, just incase. But the whole point of ERP is not to do your compulsions. I cant stop ruminating on it though. I keep thinking I should go back and report it as I cant be sure all characters in the story were depicted as 18+? Ugh I've been ruminating on this for hours now.

I could try but I still feel like a bad person, I'm worried I didn't do a moral thing by not reporting it. The thing is, I'm aware it's not my responsibility (I'm always aware) and its actually the sites responsibility to makesure nothing like that gets uploaded. I'm sure they check things before they're published anyway and I still cant stop ruminating. I feel like ERP in this form makes my thoughts worse and I want to avoid again.

@MJocd Good ERP makes thoughts and feelings more intense at first. It's not a sign it won't work. It's an opportunity for change. I often want to avoid too. But if we do exposure without response prevention, we contribute to our OCD increasing. The response prevention is the most important part

@NOCD Advocate - Katie But now I'm having intrusive thoughts about the ERP? Like what if I failed to be morally responsible and do the right thing and I'm just calling it ERP? Omg ughhh I wish my brain would just stop. It's probably fine anyway, and even if its not, how is it my responsibility to fix it? I'm just another person on the website. Any other person can have the same moral responsibility. It's not like in a moderator of the site.

I guess you're right but I cant live with myself if I feel morally irresponsible. I hate feeling like I failed to be responsible. :( I actually dont like the internet, I never know if I'll just come across danger. So I really I now want to avoid ERP altogether.

@MJocd May I say something honest?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Yes you may

@MJocd You already are living with feeling morally irresponsible. You just aren't handling the feeling in an effective way.

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Yes you're absolutely right. :( I wish I could just shift the responsibility of these things to their rightful owner of the responsibility, instead of personally feeling responsible all of the time. How do you think I could go about achieving that?

@MJocd ERP. And some cognitive strategies. But mostly ERP.