This massive argument happened in a group I'm in with other people who have the same business as me, and all I cared about was for it to hurry up and end so I could focus on figuring out what I was ruminating over. I feel so detached from the rest of the world. Like they're actually living and feeling things in the real world, and I'm living in my head and feeling things in my head.

Hi I swear I’m not stalking your posts (well maybe a little), but it sounds like you’re having an intense OCD episode right now. I can totally relate to this as lately I have been dealing with these episodes too. One of my main obsessions is about my medications and the compulsion is over-researching. Sometimes I’ll be so nervous that my medications might give me unpleasant side effects or that they won’t work that I spend hours researching them and reading countless articles about them trying to reassure myself that they are fine as they are and that my psychiatrist knows what he’s doing. I find that in these situations, it is best to take a step back from the thoughts that are ruminating in my head and instead of trying to suppress the thoughts, find a way to reduce the anxiety associated with them. One way I do this is by meditating. I recently downloaded an app, Insight Timer, on my phone and if I’m getting really anxious or my mind is a flight and simply wont stop, I grab my earbuds and pick a meditation to listen to. It really helps. You can also exercise which is good for reducing anxiety, and you can also try other mindfulness exercises. One that works really well for me is that I visualize an all-white room with two doors. Thoughts come into the room from the door on the left side of the room and while they’re in the room you practice just observing the thought, not engaging with it, not judging it, and then it leaves through the door on the right side of the room. Gone. Very often the same thought will return again and again through the door on the left, but you just keep practicing that same attitude of acceptance and non-judgmental observance every time it appears again. Try this for a few minutes and it might really help your anxiety. So I really hope this helps and I’m sorry you’re really struggling right now but know you’re not alone.