I feel so paranoid and like I am going crazy ?. I was alone & I remember just literally sitting there and being paranoid that I just said something when all I remember is just sitting on my phone .. I was talking to myself a bit before but positively . Basically my mind thinks that I said “I love myself “ which i wouldn’t have any problem with ofc but it’s making me think that I was thinking something that I’m not while saying it, obviously something that angers me because I am not and it ruins my happiness, but again I doubt I said anything to begin with and I just don’t know anymore for sure but again even just after I didn’t remember ? even moments after I did not remember, I just stopped and said “did I say anything?” I couldn’t put my finger on it... my mind assumed and then of course latched on to a very big trigger. I don’t know what to think I believe it’s not true and not knowing for sure kills me but I genuinely believe this didn’t happen I just can’t bring myself to believe it. I feel so helpless and attacked like you can literally just be sitting there and your OCD attacks and leaves you in shambles. Like my mind always believes that it happened but never it didn’t... What do you guys think?? What do I do??? help!!! ??

really it’s a fear that I said something out loud, but I was just sitting there and then my mind began making stuff up, it’s afraid I thought something that I’m not while saying that I love myself and not reacting , but I’m almost positive it didn’t happen because I have no trace of it ? I just can’t convince myself the lie seems real

Idk... that’s why I’m asking for advice

@catherinez Are you willing to tell yourself "I might've said it, there's no way to know for sure. I'm going to continue with my day like normal"?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie My brain just gives it so much significance because it’s something I don’t want to be and it triggers and makes me upset , like I remember just sitting there and panicking I don’t think I said anything but it’s like if it’s not true why should it matter I’m having trouble coping and getting past this

@catherinez Because OCD is at play. Any obsession is hard to let go of

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I’m still having some trouble, any other advice ?

@catherinez I would act as if the thought isn't important, despite the doubt being there. You use your actions to retrain your brain. If you want to treat the OCD more aggressively, scripts might be a good option

@NOCD Advocate - Katie the thought is something that I don’t want to be and it thinks since I might have thought that and didn’t react that’s it’s true and I can’t be who I am anymore ... obviously once I started overthinking I felt bad and terrified about it

@catherinez Thoughts are not reality. A thought is only a thought. It’s not good or bad. It’s how we respond to it that gets us upset.

@Breanna yeah I just keep imagining me thinking that and not responding... like I said I don’t think it happened bc if I were to think that I usually react, I don’t know if that’s good.. but what I was terrified about was me thinking that and not responding... but I freaked out after. I had no trace of it so either it didn’t happen or it happened and I wasn’t paying attention, this is making me feel so sick ?

@catherinez Continuing this conversation is likely to increase how important your brain thinks the thought is, not decrease it