I feel stuck on the exercises. I only found out in december that my anxiety is OCD and I was put on a wait list. Obviously with coronavirus there are no appointments. I'm in the UKdoi can't do this therapy. I am trying to do the exercise but my obsessive thoughts dontdont6seem to fit in the categories. TW my main thoughts are these That I will die of a heart attack or my brain overloading That gravity will stop and I'll float into nothing That the world will stop spinning (ties into the above one) That my partner will cheat on me That if I walk/drive across a bridge it will collapse That something will switch in my brain like a misfire which will cause mmy body to do something that I deny want it to ie foot on accelerator at a red light, or my legs will run me of a bridge or train track etc That I will stop breathing or blackout whilst driving I feel like I spend most of my day on edge. I don't go out or have fun. It makes me cancel plans, it gets on the way of me being a mum and being a girlfriend

I don't want you to rely on the NHS wait list. To say the least, even at the best of coronavirus-free times, they're not exactly spectacularly efficient and you may find yourself passed round for months to years before landing with a therapist who does ERP, has availability and is local ish to you. I can understand feeling a bit bewildered when your OCD doesn't seem to fit into a category, that's the case for many of us. My worst OCD was a mish-mash of real event OCD, guilt from trauma and past mistakes, moral OCD, fear or having caused harm deliberately or by negligence, and memory checking/distrust. OCD can be very personal, but that doesn't make it any less valid. The best thing to do in that situation is to try to identify a common theme which you can work with for the exercises. It sounds like the common core fear across your themes are a lack of control. You don't fear that you'll do something like with harm OCD or that you are something like with sexual/murderer OCDs or that you did something like with real event or false memory OCDs. There's no "just right" OCD, although there may be some magical thinking, depending on what your compulsions are. It seems your primary compulsion is avoidance, perhaps rumination. You fear that even if you do everything right, things outside of your control can still go wrong and have a bad impact on you. Around 50%+ of your fears are things which have the genuine possibility of happening, and I'm guessing those are ones which feel more urgent and distressing, especially during contextual moments (like the accelerator/fainting fears bother you more while you're in a car). I am going to presume you're referring to ERP exercises, perhaps the SOS function on the app. There are better resources and guides to be found on the internet to be completely honest. My book recommendation would be Letting Go by David R Hawkins. You've done a great job of identifying the obsessions, and it will be good to bear in mind that the core fear is loss of control, bad things happening which are entirely out of your hands. Would you be able to do some digging around about different compulsion types in order to identify any you might be in the habit of doing other than avoidance and rumination? Perhaps reassurance-seeking, researching whether your fears can actually happen, or doing a lot of checking (checking up on your partner, checking your health/vital signs etc)? Compulsions are often mental, so it's important to really identify as many as possible in order to be able to fully and mindfully prevent our compulsive response in the RP part of ERP.