I have unwanted, inappropriate disturbing thoughts that make me question myself as a person, and those thoughts make me feel doubtful. I am a Christian, and I feel my thoughts go against my faith. The thoughts are sometimes in an agressive or sexual nature. Other times, the thoughts have curse words. I also have unwanted thoughts about my sexuality. I'm straight, but those thoughts go against my heterosexuality. These thoughts sometimes cause me to fear going certain places, seeing certain people, hearing certain ideas, etc. I also fear germs too. I don't want to get sick, so I constantly wash my hands. This causes them to be raw, dry, and painful. I feel if I touch certian objects, the floor, doorknobs, refrigerator handle, etc., that my hands are contaminated from them. So I wash my hands constantly. I use paper towels to protect my hands from getting contaminated when I touch certain objects. I've had other symptoms over the years when I was younger. I had obsessive thoughts about curse words at 9. I started to obsess over germs at 10. I even started checking and repeating phrases and actions to make sure I did not forget, or do anything wrong. I also had unwanted thoughts about death. At 11 I started to have unwanted thoughts that were sexual and aggressive in nature. Thoughts about curse words also returned. These thoughts got worser in church because I didn't want to think about them at all. This lasted until I was 13. From 13 to 15 I started to have unwanted thoughts about my sexuality. I didn't want to become gay. I am straight but I feared still. I had fears of certain people, and school gave me anxiety. I was tormented mentally. Around my sophomore year of high school was when I started to feel less anxious about my sexuality. I think it was due to the fact that I started liking a boy in my class. Junior year was when my obsession about germs returned. I was 16 going on 17. I didn't want to get sick, so I started to wash my hands more compulsively. I feared picking up objects from the floor, touching doorknobs, touching lamp switches, touching the refrigerator handle, touching the floor, getting my hair on the floor, having certain objects touch my mouth, etc. I constantly disinfected my objects, especially when I got home from school. I disinfected my hair a lot. I even disinfected my arms sometimes or my clothes because I felt they were contaminated. I also washed my lips with soap and water, and even put hand sanitizer on my lips to kill germs. This went on into my senior year. I am now 17 going on 18. I still have thoughts about germs, but I started doing less of those compulsions to stay clean. I still constantly wash my hands however. Also, unwanted thoughts about my sexuality are starting to bother me again. The thoughts are aggressive, inappropriate, blasphemous, and sometimes sexual. It makes me question myself as a person. It also causes ne to fear certain people, and ideas. I'm not sure about places now, but I'm hoping I don't fear certain places. I pray against those thoughts. I ask God to give me peace. The thoughts aren't as severe as they were when I was 14. However, I experience mental discomfort, doubt, and distress when having these thoughts. I've decided that I want help, so I can overcome these thoughts. I don't want to be fearfull anymore. Btw, I am a 17 year old teenage girl.