I have a headache and I’m scared ?

What are you afraid of?

How about trying this: instead of worrying about what is completely out of your hands anyway, how about just simply rejoice about the fact that you ARE still living. One of my first obsessions with my first OCD experience was in fact death. I obsessed about the fact that one day I would be dead and would no longer see my loved ones. I would reassure myself to lower my anxiety and crying fits that I had a long time to live. Even that didn’t seem to help. For about a month I experienced this very dark OCD phenomenon and it destroyed every ounce of happiness I had left, if any. I couldn’t sleep at night because I would stare at my ceiling and see the dark room and immediately I would think “This must be what it’s like to be in your coffin when you die.....Dark, quiet, and lonely. I eventually recovered from this state of OCD and then went on to experience even up to this very day other mediums of OCD including harm OCD, theft OCD and Pure OCD. Regarding my death OCD, two years after I suffered from it my then wife whom I was with for 10 years decided she wanted a divorce. It completely tore me to shreds with sadness because she was my reassurance crutch through the death OCD as well as a few types after. When she left me at that time she left me at one of the hardest times of my life regarding my struggle with OCD. It took me about three months to cope with her vacancy at which time I was still bitter but was starting to feel so much happier and have fun and make new friends of whom she would not have let me become friends with had we still been together. The moral of my true story is that regarding my death OCD is that I believe I wasn’t truly happy being married to her anymore for a few years before she left me and that when I was going through the death OCD i truly believe it wasn’t dying that I was afraid of....I was afraid of “NOT LIVING” and just needed a major lifestyle change like getting that divorce. That’s just my story anyway....I hope my story is able to help you in some way. If you would like to talk I’m always available as well as the rest of the members on this wonderful site. They will always be glad to give you advice and support.

Thank you. I think I’m afraid of letting my OCD not let me live, you know what I mean? Like it’s stealing my life away from me. I can’t do the things I want to do bc I’m always feeling like shit with anxiety.

Honey I’m right there with you. OCD affects my life daily. Everyday I tell myself “this will be the last day of anxiety and compulsions....” but I know it’s all a lie to myself because 5 minutes later I have another spike and then seek reassurance. It’s bad I know it all to well. I do my own research everyday in an attempt to get to the bottom of OCD. I have developed a few techniques that I use to counter my OCD spikes. Keep pushing forward life is beautiful and is ALWAYS worth living.

Dying, having a stroke, or that something is really wrong with me.

I’m still really struggling with it. Especially now bc I constantly feel like I’m out of breath and the fear of getting covid and dying