I’m having old themes come up. Worried because I’m remembering when I would look up a fetish of mine on tumblr a few years ago. Some of the posts from the tag included furries with the fetish. I thought it was bizarre and after a while I got more specific with my search tag (ie narration/stories) so as to avoid furry content or other questionable stuff. However, I’m feeling sick because what if I should have reported it? Why didn’t I report it? I also try to go back in my memories to make sure I didn’t find it appealing. I’ve told my therapist about this situation, but I worry they don’t understand no matter how I try to explain it to them. Part of me thinks I should turn myself in. I can’t do this anymore.

Mars

Date posted: 5y

I’m a furry and I’m not sure what the fetish *was* and I’m someone who isn’t very into the sexual side of those things as long as the furries were more human than not then I don’t think it’s counted as beastiality or anything if that’s what you’re worried about. Though I’m not sure what exactly you’re speaking of per say. This is a bit vague. I understand your anxiety though.

hestia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

Hi. The fetish had to do with body inflation. Pumping air/swallowing air/just automatically being filled with air. Sorry I know it sounds bizarre and tmi. Just not sure how to feel.

Mars

Date posted: 5y

Oh. I don’t wanna reassure you but also I’ll say this once you’re fine.

hestia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

@Mars It just gives me so much anxiety. I wish I never looked up the fetish or even that I found out about tumblr. I’ve just started enjoying some things to help me cope during this time, and I feel like I’m starting all over again. Thank you for responding.

Mars

Date posted: 5y

@hestia It’s no problem. I’m struggling myself with a fetish I used to actively look for when I was a teen and it’s haunting me p bad rn. So I get it.

hestia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

@Mars I’m sorry you’re going through this. It’s pretty awful

hestia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

Also, to clarify, my intention of looking up the fetish did not include furries in the initial tag.

Fathomable

Date posted: 5y

"turn yourself in" Hi Tumblr, I looked at porn on your site and didn't report users I thought were furries Not a crime, they weren't against the site rules, and most people wouldn't see them as morally "questionable". Personally to me it would be more questionable to report people to a site they enjoy based on their fetish despite them not doing anything wrong, it's not very tolerant. Confession compulsions are an OCD feature which doesn't make anything better or make you feel any better. What could make you feel better is not going over your memories for stuff to feel bad about.

hestia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

Hi Scoggy, Thank you for your input. Turn myself in as in to the authorities. I know my therapist has said it’s not my job to police people on the internet (as I brought this up to her once but I was afraid she didn’t understand what I meant). This type of thinking tends to happen when I’ve gotten over one obsession, then it’ll go back to another one. Recycling obsessions I guess.

Fathomable

Date posted: 5y

@hestia I'm just not sure what crime you think you've committed. Furries aren't illegal, the fact they exist or draw furry porn isn't illegal afaik. That's why I expect there's never been a prosecution for it. Your therapist is certainly right. It's not illegal to not report something you think could be a crime. Sounds like your OCD just runs out of options for things to moralise to you about so it picks something which seems semi plausible to you?

hestia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

@Scoggy My brain will look for anything. It’s like letting me know that I’m not supposed to enjoy my day under any circumstances. I was mean to my sister once? Can’t move on, must punish myself. Had an intrusive thought? Might as well analyze it, that’s better than doing something productive. I’ve been running on little sleep. I’m not sure at this rate if I’ll be healthy for long, if at all.

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