Does anyone get the thought of what if I never recover while you are doing really good in recovery??can’t just be me

How are you doing in your recovery?:)

@Cameron.harris0803 I'm doing well. ?

@MiquelFM How have you been responding to your thoughts? What kind of ocd do u have ?

@Cameron.harris0803 I have HOCD. At first I was very scared because I thought I was gay. I have a girlfriend and I never liked men. I searched for nude men pictures to be sure I don't like it. And no, i wasn't excited, only disgusted. On theses days I stopped watching television for fear that I liked the characters. A stupid idea ?.

@MiquelFM When I check myself, the thoughts intensifies

@MiquelFM Yea man for sure I have the same thing ?A really good way to respond to the thought is like “yep sure whatever man”

I don’t know about you but I dream of the day I wake up and I stop thinking these ?but hey hard work pays off and exposures work

@Cameron.harris0803 It is also important to have a good atitude. ?

@MiquelFM YES DUDE!!! 100% since we are here do you ever get thoughts about having a different ocd theme? Like sum times I get those and dismiss them as just a thought and it goes away.

@Cameron.harris0803 Once when I discovered the different types of OCD I thought I could have more than one. But those thoughts quickly disappear

@MiquelFM Yea same haha! I saw like the symmetry one and I like to organize stuff and I’m like OH MY GODDD I HAVE THAT TOO rhen my wise mind took over and was like “what the fuck is wrong wirh you?” “its just a thought who cares lol focus on your damn hocd recovery?”. But after it goes away super quick. It comes back like barley and I quickly dismiss it. I think that’s good tho lol. MINDFULLNESS

@Cameron.harris0803 Have you ever thought about don't have HOCD? Sometimes I think: "I maybe don't have HOCD and I'm gay" ?? What a stupid thought

@MiquelFM Yea exactly it’s so weird. My thoughts have become like super meaningless now and this is my main theme and my only other little theme that annoys me more is the what if I never recover theme. Isn’t that weird? Like I have hocd but it doesn’t bother me really at all as much as the what if I never recover. But when I get that thought I’m just like “eh whatever” “obv imma have the thought forever” like I’ll be sarcastic and laugh at it. You any similar?

@Cameron.harris0803 Yes, I'm afraid of never recover. Usually i think: "why does that happens to me???"

@MiquelFM Yes for sure. Instead try saying “yep sure whatever” and then move on. My thoughts have really no anxiety attached to it. Some do and that’s why there staying because of the fear attached to it. But since my thoughts don’t scare me and I’m not doing any compulsions at all I’m super excited to recover:)

@Cameron.harris0803 What are your compulsions?

@MiquelFM Well I don’t have anymore really but what I used to do was mostly mental and 1 physical. My physical one was when I saw an attractive man or sum I would get a gronail response which is super common and check my arousal levels. Which I stopped for good. My mental compulsions where I would force straight thoughts in my head to suppress the gay ones. Or look back on past memories to check what I did. CHECKING IS SO COMMON. I cut that out. The only thing I do now really is rumination which I’m working on slowly.

Oh dude yea I did those too:) no worry’s!! Pls I want you to cut those out!! Your anxiety will be so bad at the start but it won’t bother you anymore!!! Those are all so common!!! Don’t ever google a lot either that’s a bad rabbit hole!!

@Cameron.harris0803 Thanks, I will try it seriously. The first time I tried that I felt so bad.

@MiquelFM Dude that’s a common symptom of guilt. No need to worry. I’m not saying you should cut it all out in one day but lemme tell you your anxiety will start to decrease and your life and mood will improve. I feel so much happier even tho I have these constant thoughts. But some days they are a lot less.

@Cameron.harris0803 It was like: "if I don't think about it i'm accepting that i'm gay". yes i know it doesn't make sense

@MiquelFM Oh dude for sure. I know this sounds scary but just accept those scary thoughts. Watch Ali greymonds video on 3 ways to react to an ocd thought. Like now!!:)) so helpful you will feel great

@Cameron.harris0803 I just watched it and I will try these tips!