Sometimes my compulsions take my full attention. Sometimes they feel totally reasonable. Sometimes I don't understand how other people could NOT do whatever I'm doing.... - And other times I can take a step back, watch myself doing compulsions, and say "this is absurd". That, my friends, is a moment of insight. - Tell us about a time you realized your comoulsions made no sense. -

I’d woken up panicking and doubting so went on to google to search my symptoms and compare with others. After a while I looked at the clock and realised 3 hours had passed; I’d literally spent three straight hours crouched over my computer thinking google would be able to tell me my sexuality. I literally pushed it away from me I’m disgust and thought ‘what the hell am I even doing?’

I had ate a slice of birthday cake for my mums birthday but I felt awful about eating it so I started to ask God about 7 times, 'Is this bad God?' 'Tell me what you think about me eating the cake'. Hoping for an answer. Then I finally realised 'Wow wait this is a compulsion and I'm adding to the snowball effect.' ? Lol

It's so dual for me. I'm attuned to what my OCD compulsions are and when I catch them I can label them OCD, and sometimes label them irrational or pointless or a waste of my life. And yet, there are always so many good arguments in favour of doing them. *Stuffed white cat guardian thing going WHY?*

Everytime I look things up on google! I really think google will help with all my problems. I take tests, look everything up I’m feeling, and cry while I do it. Then while I’m taking a test trying to figure out my sexuality I realize I don’t relate to any of the questions and what I’m doing is just a waste of energy and time.

I have a friend who listens patiently every time. I recall explaining my thoughts to her and after that, receiving a "I don't get what you're saying at all" look. She seemed so puzzled, and when I realized I wasn't even able to explain myself I went like "oh my, what am I doing", what I just said didn't make any sense

there have been many times where i’ve done a compulsion and then thought back a sec n have just been like “... what the hell did i just do that for?” bc for me it gets so silly and irrational. there have been times where i couldn’t even walk out of a door and have had to just walk in an out of it until it felt right

My beloved dog had a seizure over a year ago randomly and stopped breathing. Ever since then I check her tongue to make sure it’s pink. I also shout her name to get her attention when she’s resting to make sure her head pops up, which to me reassures me she’s okay. Both to me almost feel completely nessacary.